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Je parle francais, is one of the only things I know how to say in french. I know basics like the fact non je parle francais (I don’t even know if that’s right). And je suis, tu ete and the words anana and banan. I really want to learn French, it’s such a flowing and romantic language. I’m currently learning spanish as it is, but I want to learn french as well, even though I don’t think I’ll ever use it, it’s good to learn.

I’m only 14 and oddly, I want my first kiss. I guess it’s because I have this dream about kissing this guy. I want a special first kiss, with a guy I truly want to be with. Not anytime soon, but I want it to happen.

I guess I’m stopping to like him. It’s been almost three months since I told him I liked him, and ever since then I’ve tried to stop liking him. But he can act so retarded sometimes with his choice in girls, and you’d thinks it’s obvious to not try, but he does it anyway.

Like this one girl he went out with once, Mary. He still liked her after she broke up with him and she liked him. But when he was gonna ask her out for the SECOND time, she said that she didn’t want to go out. And now there is someone else, Carsyn.I don’t know if this is them joking or not, but something is going on between them. And Carsyn is soo conceited, she is a slut that wears shorts and skirts that barely go down three inches, he started to treat one of her best friends like a sidekick and not a friend, and she can be so fake.

I don’t know what he’s thinking, and it does help me get over him, but it also makes me care for him more, when this is a no girl-friends territory. The only thing is that I care for one of my good friends, but I can’t stop thinking about him as more than a friend. I tell everyone I’m over him, but I know I’m not. Maybe a new school next year will help me find someone else, but he’s still gonna be there. Kevin is just so stupid, and I swear, sometimes he just doesn’t think about what he’s getting into.