rainbow81

I have been doing the Wii fit a lot. I think it may be a gateway into the world of exercise. It was really tough at first but now it seems easy so I might up the pace a bit. And I’ve lost 5lbs in 3 weeks doing it ;)

I didn’t even fancy a glass of wine this weekend and when I visited me friend’s last week I drank far less than them. I really hate the way it makes me feel the next day. I often dislike the way it makes me feel at the time. This is a long term goal though as I slip when I’m in company.

I just read this book after getting out of a relationship with someone with a strong alcohol dependency who used and used me. I have to say I’ve cried a lot reading this and realising that I put other people’s feelings before my own then later feel used and abused. The most important thing I’ve learned is that “you cannot simultaneously set a boundary and take care of another person’s feelings”. This above all things is enabling me to stay free from my ex. Though everytime I receive a text or an email from him and don’t respond I feel almost evil and it really upsets me. I need to do a lot of work on boundaries and learning that I’m not responsible for how other people feel. I have to do some Family of Origin work, which scares the hell out of me. I’ve been looking at CoDA meetings online but I’m not sure if I’ve got it in me to go to one yet. Above all I am scared.