rainydayinmay




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visit every state in the U.S. (read all 2 entries…)
I need to visit...

South Dakota
Mississippi
Louisiana
Alabama
Florida
South Carolina
North Carolina
Delaware
Connecticut
Rhode Island
Vermont
Massachusetts
Maine
New Hampshire



Visit New York City in each season.
Spring...

I visited in the spring of 2005. (SOOO long ago, it feels.)
It was amazing…



get over him (read all 4 entries…)
Gravity...

I really love the Sara Bareilles song “Gravity”... I think it’s the one thing that I “fall to” when I really miss him. This thing, this pull, is so much like gravity. I know, as well as anyone, that the longer I go that he is inaccessible. As the song says… ”...but you touch me for a little while, and all of my fragile strength is gone…”
And it’s been awhile. I lost count of the days (which is an important step.)
I’ve been here before. It had been almost 6 months of no communication and I was doing amazingly well, until I heard from him. I crumbled…

I’m in a good place.
I do miss him, and if I allow myself to dwell on that, I can’t breathe. BUT I can move beyond that. I don’t NEED him, to breathe. I don’t feel this consuming need to reach out to him.

When a dark moment comes I just sing these words over and over… Because the truth in them in everything.

”...But you’re neither friend nor foe, though I can’t seem to let you go the one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down…”



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