I have always been a pretty good student in high school, but since coming to college, my depression has been spiraling out of control, I would rather sleep instead of face all the issues I have to deal with… My parents have sacrificed so much for this college education, and I really want to make them proud. I don’t want to drop out. Now, this is just my first semester at college. Am I completely screwed, or do I have a chance? Please, please, please help!
ranguvar7's Life List
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1. Beat my depression
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2. Lose 20 pounds
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3. To live instead of exist
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4. make a list of new things that I want to try either in college or when I grow up (or if and when I get the money)
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5. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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6. be beautiful
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7. Sing
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8. be fluent in Japanese
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9. stop swearing
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10. Get organized
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11. become a millionaire
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12. act
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13. stop thinking about suicide
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14. stop procrastinating
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15. be more confident
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16. travel the world
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17. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
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18. smile more
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19. Not care what other people think
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20. find the meaning of life
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21. Read more books
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22. make a webcomic
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23. be a good person
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24. Get a tattoo
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25. draw more
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26. Fall in love
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27. live in japan
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28. be very skinny
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29. live on my own
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30. Wear my retainers regularly
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31. Be absurdly classy.
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32. Elect Barack Obama president
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33. never apologize for being me
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34. stay in touch with friends
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35. Be an extra in a movie
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36. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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37. learn 2000 kanji
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38. move out of my parents' house
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39. write a book
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40. die bravely
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41. 24hour what I want challenge
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42. learn to speak with a British accent
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...Thanks again for your comments guys. There’s really no other option, but I won’t do well here, that for sure. I feel so dead and lifeless all the time and…
...quite frankly I’m sick of writing that all the time, how freaking depressed I am. I’m sick of telling my parents and all the doctors too. I don’t want to study anymore, I really don’t want to do anything except curl up with a good book right now. I have ten hours of homework due at 12:00 am and I haven’t even started and I probably won’t. I’ll just take the zero and read a good old children’s book.
I’m so tired of everything….
... I need to figure out what I want to do, what I NEED to do with my life. What makes me want to live.
Please tell me what you guys think. I don’t want to make a rash decision just because I’m upset right now.
