Draco

The bastards actually offered me the job… from an interview I had four weeeks ago. Wowwwww was I caught off guard.

Of course I accepted. I really had myself convinced that a job offer was nonattainable.

Ironically, the position is for public welfare caseworker, hah! Oh the irony! I get this news on the SAME DAY I SENT MY APPLICATION FOR WELFARE! The same day I was thinking that the ship was just goin’ down. Well I can withdraw that welfare application now, hahah.

I’m excited, yea, but also nervous too. I’m a lot wiser going into this than when I stepped into my job in juvenile corrections. I have a better idea of what to look out for now, a priceless awareness of the warning signs of a job that might not be a good fit. I just keep telling myself that the chances are, not much could be worse than that bad job experience I had before.

I start Monday Feb 27. Full time. Full government benefits. It even pays more than the corrections job. Six thousand more. More than I’ve ever made in my whole life. Wow, wow wow.

I’m calm, feeling good. I gave two weeks’ notice for mall security and I’m leaving them on great terms. I’m gonna stay calm and try to take this step by step, take deep breaths, take it slow.

This transition to a new change will be a doozey. There’s going to be some challenges. I know all too well now that money is not everything when it comes to a job, thanks to my experience in juvie corrections.

But let’s try it!
We’ll see what happens with this one . . .

If three years ago you were to ask me what I thought I’d be doing a year-and-a-half after graduation, I probably would have said I’d be working in an office building somewhere in the city, with my own office with a nice view.

If not that, I would have at least said I’d have enough money to live somewhat comfortably on my own in at least a studio apartment.

Instead, 18 months now after graduation, I’m following up on applications for food stamps and government assistance programs, because I make $9.00 per hour BEFORE tax deductions, at an employer who gives me no health insurance; I pay for my meds out-of-pocket, and this is what life is like now. My family situation continues to deteriorate, I feel like crying all the time, I’m trying to reduce the number of times I cut myself each week. I never, ever thought that this is the life that was waiting for me after college.

For Chrissake I’m applying to be on welfare.

Hopefully it won’t be like this forever.

Actually it was excellent. I believe I impressed them. I may be contacted for future a vacancy. That’s all I really want to say about it.

Since Friday I’ve felt so tired, though. It has me concerned. I slept 12 hours last night and still had trouble waking up. I think working 40 hours and then the interview on Friday just left me completely exhausted.