I'm doing 9 things
Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I am the worst looking person on this earth. I don’t think people walk around and say” bless her heart she can’t help it” I don’t think that I am that type of ugly. But I feel like no matter what I change about myself I will never look as good as most of the girls i see. I think its the weight that does it for me. I am 256 lbs. Yeah that isn’t my definition of beauty either. and its not just that my nose is too wide, my skin is too pale, my eyes are this pukey green color, And of all hair colors I ended up a redhead! No matter what i do I cant lose the weight I have dieted, used the pills excercised and done it in excess at times. At one point I was eating one salad with light dressing per day and working out for three hours at a time four times a weeek and GAINED 10 lbs. Talk about discouraging! I just wish I could transfer myself into a different body and i believe things would be much better
