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I’ve decided that if I can put aside at least $20 a week in a year I will have over a thousand dollars. So I’ve decided that I can afford to put aside $20 every week. So today I put $20 in an envelope and put the envelope under my mattress. I’m just hoping that I can control myself not to take any money out of the envelope!

I was with my ex for 3 years and he was the love of my life. We absolutely were soul mates. I have never loved anyone or been loved like that ever. He developed a drug problem and it flushed our relationship down the toilet. We both tried hard to make it work. I supported him through rehab and he tried to kick his problem. But things just kept getting worse. It was the hardest decision that I had ever made but I eventually left him. I never stopped loving him for a second, but living with a drug addict was tearing me apart. We didn’t stop loving each other but we had to be apart. He eventually started dating someone else and a couple of months into it she got pregnant. He decided to do the right thing and he stayed with her and moved in with her even though he didn’t love her. 4 months after his son was born, apparently he couldn’t handle his struggle to stay sober and he felt that his son was better off without him so he commited suicide. My heart has never hurt so much. Now that he is gone I’m not sure that I will ever be able to get over him. I think about him every day and I’m not letting any other man in. But I am going to try to get over him and move on with my life.