rhamantus

It’s proving damn near impossible for me to actively negate years and years of ingrained self-hatred. Intellectually, I know I have no reason to hate myself, and yet I do.

I’m kind of floundering as to my education right now. I’m currently at the community college, ostensibly to try and get the core requirements out of the way, for less money. Thing is, I only intended to be at the community college for a year. I’m now on my 3rd semester at the community college, with a 4th semester here to look forward to. I hate going here because there’s no sense of community at all, and it’s far from where I want to be. But, I’m stuck here until I can afford to go to UNR (University of Nevada, Reno). So, day-to-day life at school is kind of just dragging on.
I’m also having some doubts about my major, anthropology. I’m still very passionate about it, but I’m having doubts about the practicality of it, at least for someone like me. I’d hope I’d be able to make a living in anthropology, doing what I love, but I know myself well enough to know that I’m not always the most motivated person. So, I really am trying to find ways to fix both of these problems. Come hell or high water, I’ll make it to UNR by Fall 2006, and maybe then I’ll stop being listless and such about my education.