Richard

Yesterday evening I visited a friend of mine whom I haven’t seen for about a month or so, he cooked some delicious meal and we watched “The Incredibles” and afterwards “Underworld”.

When I left (at about 5 in the morning or so) the minute I got outside the heavy rain started, so I ran to my car and cursed the bad luck that always seem to befall me… But then, quite unexpectedly, some kind of internal monologue went on in my head, like another voice saying “What are you whining about? You have been there for about 8 hours, it could have rained all that time as well and maybe it was just dry the moment before you left. And so what? It’s not you who has been specifically targetted. Drive home and wait in the car until it rains a bit less and go inside. No fuzz.”

So I did, and I wasn’t barely home and the rain already subsided, so I didn’t have to wait for long to go inside. So learning to relax is basically a chance of attitude towards things, I need to work on that more…

Maybe I’ll need to look at it that way as well towards the guy my ex cheated me with. I feel like I could tear his limbs out (still! and it has been exactly half a year ago), but then again… He didn’t do it to taunt me, if Iva would have had a relationship with somebody else it would have happened to that guy as well. When they were doing whatever they were doing at that moment I don’t think he had “Let’s get Richard with this” on his mind. Yet I have the wicked feeling that it’s unjust that guys like him just seem to get away with everything without learning from an experience, and that it’s a kind of duty to teach him otherwise. Yet I’m left with the mess, still receiving mail/bills from time to time adressed to her, getting phonecalls of irritating telemarketeers asking for her, and the fact that I had to go to the doctor for the damn STD test.

Speaking of telemarketeers, this beautiful gem of a conversation I had a few days ago (translated):

Me: “Richard Loerakker speaking, good evening.”

TM: “Good evening, [blahblah] from [lame insurance company], am I speaking with Mrs. erhmm sorry if I pronounce it wrong, Mrs. ‘Cowsherova’?”

Me: “No, you’re talking to Mr. Richard Loerakker”

TM: “Oh, erhm I’m sorry. Can I speak to Mrs. Queuecherova?”

Me: “No, I’m sorry you can’t, she doesn’t live here anymore”

TM: “Oh stumbles I’m so very sorry, my condoleances, I’ll make a notice of this”

Me: “Pardon? She’s not dead, she just lives somewhere else in Almere, but not with me anymore”

TM: “Oh, sorry, I misunderstood, I heard ‘She doesn’t live anymore’”, I’m very sorry to have bothered you sir, good evening”

Me: “Good evening and good luck in your next attempt to sell something”

- click - tuut - tuut - tuut—

I wish these goddamn calls would stop, it really irritates me. I think next time I get such call I just say she’s dead and save me a few minutes of irritation and the person who calls a few minutes of emberassment.

First I needed some foul-tasting nail polish to remind me that I was biting my nails, but once I broke the habit it was quite easy to let them grow without biting them. Now I let the nails on my thumbs grow and regularly cut the other ones, because they interfere with my typing and I hate the feeling. But it looks way better now than before, and I’m happy I was able to break the habit.

On the 23rd of September the Metalvisie Songfestival has taken place, and we were one out of 14 groups that performed. Each band was allowed to play one song of their own and one song that was meant as spoof on the Eurovision Songfestival (where Lordi won). Aside from that I had troubles hearing the bass guitar as well as the lead guitar while playing drums and forgetting a part of the text I had to sing(!) people didn’t seem to mind at all and showed they had lots of fun.

All the groups showed a lot of creativity and crazyness, as you can see from the pictures of the event, and the winner was Goddess of Desire which I think is a fair thing, they made a very good dutch “Koos Alberts” alike song and had two beautiful girls walking around the stage showing the lyrics. I wonder if anyone actually cared reading them :) A thing that surprised me and had me baffled for a moment is that we were 2nd, with a narrow miss of beating GoD. I t felt as a warm welcome and that people appreciate what we’re doing. Thanks a lot to all the people who voted for NecroMorticA and supporting us!

When I look back at the evening I think that all the bands have shown their best, and we’ve also showed that it’s not all seriousness and things, but we also like the humor and ridiculing ourselves at times. It was a successful evening, and it attrackted a lot of people (the event was completely sold out!). I hope they had a good evening, well, I know I did :)

Photo’s of the event:
http://www.eikendal.net
http://www.xs4all.nl/~pamahuvi/metalvisie/Metalvisie%20Songfestival/
http://www.metalvisie.mijnalbums.nl

(btw, picture in this post is taken from Eikendal thanks for shooting me)