rjman

I know that most people think that math is really, really, really hard, and they don’t wanna even hear about it. But for some reasons, this has been the only subject that I like before going to college, and I’m still considering as my major. I know it’s hard, but I kinda like it cauz i like the challenge. And just because i’m majoring in math, peeps think i’m smart. Anyway, my prof. thinks I am. But I kinda dislike the behavior of my math majors peeps. they look like freaks. anyway, i’m not on that level yet. Hopefully not. I’ll always keep that fresh looking young guy while doin’ the crazy works of mathematics. but I haven’t still figured out what i wanna do with when i graduate. Any idea peeps?

every year, every day, every moment, every minute, every second, I’ve told myself that I’m as good as anyone, as important as anyone, as sociable as anyone, but I can never feel that way. Life is supposed fun, not a stressing lousy living hell. Why is it so hard to just be oneself, do the things one wants to do? I wish that I could go to sleep, and wake up in the morning shyfree. but it’s never the case. I have learned that I have to work at it every second, every minute, and every day. I just wanna speak at will. I just wanna approach others at will, and not let them always come to me. I just wanna voice my opinion at will. I just wanna stop hearing from others, “this is the first time I hear your voice” while I’ve known them for months or years. I am open for change. I’m willing to go to the extreme to enjoy my life and not stay in the closet.