rlcorrigan

Yesterday sucked, super hungry and craving everything in sight. I can’t count how many times I almost unwrapped a granola bar or dug into the leftovers in the fridge. I’m proud of myself for resisting though. I also felt very weak and out of it; today not so much. Today is better but still hard. It doesn’t help that the weather sucks outside (humid, off and on rainy, but kinda chilly too) so that’s dampening my mood and decreasing my ability/motivation to exercise. Also the fact that I broke up with my boyfriend recently sucks too. That’s one of the reasons I was finally ready to complete my 2nd MC- I’ve been putting it off for a while now and I want something to concentrate my efforts on besides ruminating over my ex and shit tied up with him. Also my 1st I did in January and then I did a juice fast in March, so it’s definitely time for another cleanse. My first MC was a great success but I remember the first few days being the hardest. I just have to stay strong and get through this. I did cheat a little and had a couple popsicles, but they’re natural fruit juice and as far as cheats go, it’s not so bad. I won’t have any more though. They don’t really need to be digested either- it’s not like cheating by having soup or salad, which actually require digestion.

God I miss food. I’m bored, listless, blahhh.

I currently work out four days a week and it’s made me feel like gold. I want to start exercising more on the weekends, which is when I am likely to get lazy.

I’ve been very interesting in a raw-food diet fr a while and I read about a dude who for forty days or so ate nothing but raw fruit and vegetables- and no fatty ones such as avocado. As you can imagine he lost a ridiculous amount of weight. I’m going to try to do the same only for a much shorter period of time (one to two weeks) and if I find myself getting too weak or hungry, I’ll allow myself avocado or a protein shake. Also I’m allowed to have my morning coffee (with a little skim) cause I can’t do without and herbals teas and perhaps a diet soda once in a while.