rockabillyriot

it’s true, i suck and i let people walk all over me, my wife included. i love her more than anything in the world and she pretty much saved my life (i spent years as a non functioning alcoholic). we just fight all the time about stupid shit, mostly money, which i really don’t care about. i do all the housework, laundry, cooking, i write her love notes still, surprise her every now and then with a massage and usually have nothing but nice things to say about her to other people. in return i get absolutely nothing. so the problem is…i suck.

there’s nothing to say but “this is gonna take a while.” there’s also nobody to blame but myself. i’ve spent years destroying my credit and while i still don’t care about it, someday i might. i don’t have a bank account and i pay for everything i have with cash or i go without. i just can’t help but think that when i’m older, it’s going to kick me in the ass if i don’t start doing something about it now.

i grew up on the water, lakes and rivers, but i never even saw a beach until i was probably almost 20 years old. for the last 10 years it’s never gone away. i go every chance i get, which is only a few times a year. it kinda helps curb the salt water air addiction, but it’s not enough anymore. i’ve decided that i’m doing it. going to find a small place for me and the wife (if we don’t kill each other first) my motorcycle and a dog and be the happiest person in the world.