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Gabriel is finally able to say his own name. The sounds have always made it too hard. Gabriwo he says now. The closest he’s ever gotten.I didn’t realize it would be so tough to say or write when we picked it.

He also says he wants to write his name, although he’s such a perfectionist that he hates to do things he can’t do write and keeps giving up. But yesterday, I sat down with him and wrote out his name. I started on the G, but just asking him to copy the letter was too hard. Instead I showed him the proper way to hold the pencil and also we practiced drawing circles. In the end, he had success with a lowercase g instead of the uppercase G and managed a couple of wiggly “g”s. Then he said he wanted to try the A, because that was more fun, so we worked on a couple of “A”s also wiggly. Then he got tired, and that was fine, because he did a bunch, and I told him how many things he had learned in those few minutes, even if he hadn’t managed to write his name yet.

And Ivy peed in the potty TWICE. She usually sits on the potty and doesn’t pee. I should really step up the potty training, but I’ve been expecting to move for so long, that I keep putting it off for the move, and then the move keeps getting delayed so I could have done the potty training way back when. Well, maybe I should just do it anyway. I’ll probably end up with a girl who refuses diapers but has no control on a flight across country. Ah. but this is the happy pages so let’s just ignore that.

Getting things done yesterday. Remarkable how accomplished mopping the floor makes one feel.

The multivitamin is working. I have more energy although I still can’t wake up easily.

My creativity chapter is starting to take form. Yay for journals.

*call SS people about # for girl
*email woman whose paypal didn’t go through for print
*make sure the paperwork can be faxed to the people who need it.
*do two more tiny loads of laundry so it doesn’t back up and flood the bathroom.
*call S and make sure he faxed his paper work.
*go over questions for chapter again and continue
*snowflake outline, step 4, write story from other characters pov
*put laundry in dressers.
*fill wading pool and let kids splash around.
*cook, clean,dress, entertain kids

Yay me. It’s not my book, but I am a part of it. I don’t seem to have time to write my own book on creativity. But perhaps this chapter in someone else’s book will help me wrap my head around the huge book that I have been dreaming about for 10 years or so.

I have to answer the woman’s questions about what inspires me, and my materials. Then I have to make a piece of art that is an example of the technique I’m writing about and do it step by step.

It’s so hard! I don’t usually examine my processes step by step. Well, I do sometimes. I don’t usually plan to do so ahead of time. Or try to explain the overarching process and what it all means. Or do I? Well, yes I do.

Maybe it’s only because someone is asking me to pull my thoughts together and write them dwon that I find it difficult.

Maybe it’s because she’s asking me to explain the totality of how I do it. To define it, rather than just explain what I’ve already done. To say, “this is who I am, this is what I do, this is the kind of art I paint, and this is where I come from.”

Oh, I think I’m just complaining right now. I need to sit down and just start doing. When I did that yesterday, ideas came and it all started making sense. When I think about how in the world I am ever going to do something because I don’t know where to start I get all kerflumoxed.

When I stop wondering and worrying and just sit down and work, following the steps before me, following the questions and the inspiration… well… then it all works.

And that is exactly how my Intuitive Painting and Journaling works.