ok..so I booked some counselling today – I go on Thursday..finally Im going to work on getting over this thing…
royalewcheese's Life List
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1. I want to be truly happy
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2. Be a better friend
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3. print all the digital photos I've taken
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4. Do good deeds like the SSSSH do!
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5. go to Mexico
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6. fix up my tattoo
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7. win lotto
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8. I want to have 43 things on my list!!
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9. Make sure my daughter is ok
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10. Lose some weight
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11. get a house in the country
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12. be a more positive person
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13. cut down on drinking
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14. own my own business
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15. publish my book
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16. travel around Australia in a bus
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17. sort out my relationship
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...and its still fucked! On and off for the first 6 years, then got married and stayed married for 4 more years..then separated last July (been sep for 12 months now). But of course with us nothing is simple and we have been ‘dating’ and seeing each other since separating…both of us unable to define what it is we are doing and each of us unable to make a break and let the other go…but yet both of us knowing that really there is such a minimal chance of things working out for us again…ahhh its all too hard…
i am a bad friend because i act a bit like a hermit – i will fail to phone people or initiate arrangements to catch up…i make excuses not to catch up or lie that Im already busy…i dont know why – this is even with people i actually really like!! i want to change this because i dont want to look up in 10 years and realise im all alone!
