rsilver15

So, I’ve been really sick for about 7 months now and the doctors are very frustrating and so far not all that helpful and my friends are totally unsupportive or just, I don’t know ignorant, maybe, and just a lot of bad stuff has been going on and its been making me very depressed and angry. But you know, this was my Junior year, and it was supposed to be great and I was supposed to have fun and do all these things, a lot of which I haven’t been able to do because of whats been happening, but more than whats happening around me I hate how it makes me feel and how I’ve been thinking lately. So even if I can’t change all the crappy stuff thats been going on, I really want to try and change how I react towards it all and how I live; I want to be happy again; even if nothing changes to make me happy I should be able to make myself happy, right? I don’t know. Either way, my parents are making me see a therapist and schools almost out and so both those things supposedly should make me feel better.

I’ve been doing yoga for a while now, I mean, I’m still awful at it, but I’m doing it, and the goal is to PRACTICE yoga, not to master it, right? But I really do enjoy it and even though I’m about the least flexible person ever, I’m getting better, though I still can’t do the Crow… maybe someday!

well, i just feel very behind in the whole boy department. I mean, i am almost 16, and i haven’t even really had a ‘real’ boyfriend, let alone been kissed, but, why not? Sure, there is the matter of finding a boy who would kiss me… but anything’s possible right? why shouldn’t i be able to kiss a guy? Goodness knows most other girls my age have no problem finding plenty of guys willing to kiss them, so why not me?