runwim

November 4 – 1600m
Total 81.6 km = 50.7038893 miles! Yayyyyyyy!

is FUN!
But oh coincidence… singing I want you on Saturday morning and having a deep experience with what the song is all about on Saturday night…................... Fortunately I can already laugh about it now:)

Allright… (sorry for venting…)
As said earlier I want to improve my social life. See friends regularly.
Last weekend was GF’s insight that she was quite possessive towards me (didn’t like me to see other women, like meet, have lunch with, go visit) and that as a consequence both she and I were missing opportunities in terms of being happy and having a social life worth mentioning. She made a hugely drastic proposal to change this (but at the same time made it clear that she just can’t miss me and that she doesn’t want to break up with me for a night and come back in the morning again) and after some discussion we agreed that we are both free to see anyone – see as in anything’s okay except sexual intercourse. On her request.

Today, one week later – I’ve been working the whole afternoon in her garden and now she’s off to party and have fun with someone else (and possibly sleep with him, as in have-all-the-fun-but-possibly-not-intercourse). Yes I’m overly naive, not that I didn’t know that she was seeing an opportunity with someone particular (even know his first name… or their… she’s got multiple options), but I hadn’t imagined that it would happen this soon...
I’ve got nobody who I could just invite into my bed so this brings me back to the subject of this entry: gotta hurry to find someone, for the sake of my own mental/emotional health and the balance in the relation-ship – or what?

Feedback appreciated – I don’t need compassion but any help to put things in perspective and how to move on from here would be great.
_{First thing – I’m going out on my own tonight.}