russianbuck

I’m going to wait until I hit a 1-month mark until I officially consider this a success but I am pretty sure that it is a success. I went skydiving this weekend and realized that being high on life is much more fun than being stoned out of your mind. Good luck to you all in everything that you do!!

It is the best experience I had ever had and I will be going skydiving again on Friday. The moment that airplane takes off, you realize that all of the little things that you worry about in your life are just plain ol’ bullshit that really doesn’t matter. My next skydiving goal is to a) get certified and b)skydive on every continent by the time I am 30.
Go skydiving!!!!

Today is day 25 of my soberness and… well, this is not getting easier.
Pot used to make me lazier, which wasn’t necessarily a bad thing. “Lazy” for me is defined as working 40-60 hours a week while going to school full time. Right now I am on “vacation” without pot, which means that I got bored out of my mind the first two days here and I have been working 10-12 hours a day remodeling our vacation house. I am still fairly edgy and it’s not getting easier or better.
To prove the point on going nuts being busy I will give you my today’s breakdown:
9:00- Wake-up (I have been sleeping in here since I can’t go to sleep)
9:30-12-30- Organizing my “work site”, giving shit to people at Home Depot for screwing up my order, then kissing some ass at Lowes and lumber yards to get my materials located and delivered the same day (boy, I am good at that.)
12:40-2:20 Dentist appointment (one of my crowns came off)
2:40-10:00 Tearing out kitchen ceiling, putting in new trusses
10:30-now: doing some desing breakdowns, organizing my music (all 6,000++ songs, I am to a letter G now.)
It is almost 1, I won’t go to sleep till 2:30-3:00 and then be up at 8:30-9:00 doing it all over
Did I mention that I am on VACATION?
Bottom line is, I think that one of the reasons why I started to smoke so much pot is because I started to burn out from my craziness.

Of course, there is a great deal of positive things from not smoking as well. I have a clear mind, I am motivated to accomplish a lot more. I am finally getting things done on my list of “Things before I die.” I haven’t gotten a tattoo yet (to honor my late friend) because I know that I will piss quite a few people off. But I am going water skiing as soon as weather gets decent enough and I am going skydiving on Saturday (already paid for and scheduled), hopefully other things will get done as well. In a week or so I’ll be able to pass a drug test, which will be nice.
I am going back home on 23 and I know that I have a big bag of really good stuff left. It’s going to be hard not to break down and I think that there is a good chance that I’ll let myself smoke a bowl. I just don’t know… this is tough