I'm doing 17 things
I’m so sick of my dads shit talking to his kids like were a piece of crap and we are just supposed to take it. I mean you called your own daughter (my sister) a bitch right in front of us. You always make us feel like its our fault like we aren’t good enough that we are the ones who are always wrong that we are the screwed up ones. I would never talk to my son the way you have talked to me. Dad i’m not a loser i’m not a quitter and people will love me. I will not stand for this anymore now dad child services have already got involved once and if you for one second scream at me and take your anger out on me again I’M LEAVING! I’m old enough now to change the custody agreement. You have always taken your own life down the toilet but i’m not going to let you take mine, hell no, not anymore, im putting my foot down. I don’t deserve to be treated the way you treat me. For years now you have verbally abused me while other kids played with their friends you never talked to me and i had to be yelled at and cry believing it was all my fault. especially when i was a kid and didn’t know what was going on. Now that i can see clearly and see you for what you really are i want to get as far away as possible, your just a smuck. Dad we all know what you love best in your life, alcohol, take it and never talk to me again, because you’ve never been and never will be my father.
ryan19554's Life List
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1. stop being abused
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2. FEEL
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3. not worry about what others think of me
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4. stop thinking so much
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5. Make friends that are REAL friends
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6. stop putting myself down
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7. live each day like it's my last
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8. Take up parkour
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9. Spend no more than 3 hours a day on the computer.
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10. stop dreaming and start doing these things
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11. go skateboarding with a friend
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12. kickflip on a skateboard
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13. stop taking anti depressants
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14. heal from abuse
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15. volunteer at a homeless shelter
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16. Open my heart
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17. speak up for myself
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How I did it: My girl and i have been seeing for a month or two and we were hugging and kind of slow dancing at borders book store in a secluded area because there was a band playing and a lot of the store was empty so after laying my head on her shoulder i looked her in the eyes and we both went for it. It was more like a peck. It felt so great but was a bit awkward after it. But we both enjoyed it greatly. Then after a while i stole her shoe and ran … Read how I did it…
How I did it: Find a quiet place and start writing your thoughts on paper.if you need help writing a poem comment on here and ill help.I'm only 14 :) so here's my poem its copyrighted.scarsthey stick with you foreverwherever you goonly you can see themthey bleed insidecant block outthe pain i feelso aloneso helplesswhy godif you existtorture me with memoriesscrews up my mindnever know whats insidelost myself in the battlecant seethe light that once was me Read how I did it…
Been through the worst shit. abuse from an alcoholic father. Another man who i thought was my father who left. Everybody even my friends left me to toil away into depression. But i know i need to live and be open to people in order to feel happy again,even though there may be disappointments i think it will be worth it
I made a big step today my doctor would say it would be a while if I can stop taking them even up to 2 years which i believe is a load of crap so i experimented today and did not take them. I feel great
