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I still love reading entries, they are such a ray of hope for everyone. I know it doesn’t seem that way, but everyone is trying so hard to accomplish this and eventually it will come. I am doing REALLY well and I attribute it ALL to quitting drinking. My husband and I are getting along better than we have in years, I’ve paid of so much debt that I was never able to get down because I was drinking all my money away, I am feeling healthier and more alive than I have in I can’t remember when and I’m making new friendships that aren’t entirely focused on alcohol. I am also expecting my first baby! My husband and I have struggled with infertility for so long and now we’re officially expecting and I’m past the first trimester. I believe that this has all been God’s plan. He knew before we weren’t quite ready and that I wasn’t prepared to make a whole lifestyle change like I am now. I feel like I’m truly blessed and will never go back to the misery that every day was when I was drinking. Thank you all for the support! I wouldn’t be here without it!!!

It’s amazing how life can turn around! I’m so much happier sober. The misery, shame, guilt and desperation that I felt has been replaced with hope, optimism and goals. I have a lot of regrets for the time I’ve wasted but I have so much hope for the future because I know I’m no longer sitting on my couch, stuck in a bottle as life passes by. I have lost friends along the way, but when I look back at it I realize that losing these “friends” is a reason to celebrate. I have true friends and family that are standing right beside me celebrating my successes. Keep posting everyone! What seems impossible can be done!

I’m at day 44 and I’ve done this before and wonder if there’s a bit of a honeymoon phase? Don’t get me wrong, I’m so, so happy I’m not drinking and my life is 180 degrees different, but… there’s some sort of lull that comes over my life when I hit a certain amount of time sober. In the beginning of it the excitement and the high is sooo incredible and then all of a sudden I wake up and it’s not the first thing I think about and it’s just an ordinary day. I don’t know how to say this without sounding ungrateful, but how do other people handle this feeling? Maybe it’s the habit being broken where I realize I have so much time on my hands to NOT think about alcohol, to NOT be hungover or to NOT be ashamed and regretful. I don’t know but I’m sure tomorrow will be better!