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I just did this in one day the last week of August and had a wonderful time. It’s a tough one but very do-able if you’re in decent shape. Lots of fun and lots of people on the trail and up on top.

It’s been forever since I’ve been on 43 things.

I’m still off of antidepressants (about 15 months now), which I’m proud of. And I still sometimes wonder if I shouldn’t go back on them, which is mildly troubling.

It’s funny, I think it’s better to be off them, but life does feel more painful. I’m probably one of those people who’s had a low grade depression and feeling of emptiness, off and on, for much of life, especially starting in my teens. I’ve been in therapy several times, done prozac and wellbutrin, currently use exercise, yoga, vitamins and Saint John’s Wort. I get by and yet am often quietly miserable.

Sometimes the prozac seems like it would be worth it, other times I’m happy to still be off it. I’ll continue searching for the way forward.

It’s been over two months that I’ve been off the meds and one nice thing I’ve noticed is that my libido is back in full force! I’d forgotten how much the prozac had put a damper on it. That alone is a nice reason to stay medication free!