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I have so enjoyed reading everyone’s entries this morning. I’ve found it really helpful to read of how this first week’s experiences have impacted on others. I can see parallels and have learned from the connections and differences.
I too have found this week draining and emotional. I’ve not for a moment wanted to stop or skip any of the experiences but I’ve found the week a struggle generally.
I’ve felt confused and frankly – burdened. I’ve wanted reassurance or guidance; I’ve wanted a direction and to know that I’m going the right way. This morning I used my morning pages for a written visualisation that I love and find inspirational every time I try it. It’s nothing complicated but invariably it will leave me the message or guidance or clarification I need. This morning I was reminded that I must let go: that I can’t control and I can’t know why. This morning I was reminded of the joys and strengths to be found in trust and faith and love. And now I feel better: centred once more.
Like Besidequietwaters I have felt the need for a break today. I’ve been thinking for several weeks of creating a new goal: make Sunday a day of rest. But week after week there’s been a reason why I can’t do that just yet. And as each week passes I feel the lack of that rest. Before logging on here I had already decided to make a change today: Sundays will not be about lists and goals and things to get done. Sundays will be about choice and freedom and time spent with others. Sundays will be about letting go and letting in. I am going to add this goal as of now – albeit with a slight change to the wording.
I am so pleased to be taking this journey with such an insightful, sensitive and supportive group. I can’t tell where it is going or why but I know it a path that I must travel and that now is the time to travel it.
