satellitearcade

is haunted by his imperfect nature



I'm doing 35 things
 

satellitearcade's Life List

  1. 1. create a product that sells 10,000units
    1 entry
    1 person
  2. 2. Learn to love pushing myself past the wall (bec. the wall does not exist)
    2 entries
    1 person
  3. 3. become a successful businessman
    1 entry
    43 people
  4. 4. find love
    4 entries
    1,945 people
  5. 5. have meaningful relationships with 20 people
    1 entry
    1 person
  6. 6. consistently live with inward bearings (live inwardly)
    1 person
  7. 7. have only 12% body fat
    2 entries
    1 person
  8. 8. Choose to love more than to hate
    1 entry
    1 person
  9. 9. have complete control over my social faculties and read social cues
    1 person
  10. 10. be great at the "conversational dance"
    1 entry
    1 person
  11. 11. Let my decisions be driven by sensibility, as opposed to fear
    1 entry
    1 person
  12. 12. have a group of friends like the show "Friends"
    1 person
  13. 13. learn that time is a tool and pushing/bombarding people never works
    1 person
  14. 14. Turn my superficial courage into deep and whole courage
    1 person
  15. 15. Be a person that commands respect
    3 entries
    1 person
  16. 16. learn basic car maintenance and drive manual trans.
    2 people
  17. 17. know my way through all major roads in the Metro
    1 person
  18. 18. study design/architecture
    1 person
  19. 19. practice good hygiene
    9 people
  20. 20. improve posture
    1 entry
    121 people
  21. 21. stop fearing women
    2 entries
    1 person
  22. 22. respect my family as I do other people
    1 entry
    1 person
  23. 23. Hone one of my talents to performance level
    1 person
  24. 24. Become Financially Independent
    1 entry
    5,445 people
  25. 25. Burn the forbidden city
    1 person
  26. 26. Have an awesomely different life by April 12, 2010 (this time next year)
    1 person
  27. 27. visit all 7 continents
    1 entry
    1,302 people
  28. 28. Learn Mandarin Chinese
    270 people
  29. 29. Make my first million
    48 people
  30. 30. Go to Australia and eat Fish&Chips and Sausage
    1 person
  31. 31. Design something for public consumption/display
    1 person
  32. 32. Fly a plane
    964 people
  33. 33. become the Ernst & Young Entrepreneur of the Year
    2 people
  34. 34. Standardize and organize my business
    1 entry
    1 person
  35. 35. build a car
    261 people

How I did it
How to learn to play the guitar (while singing)
It took me
2 months
It made me
feel good


How to have an awesomely different life April 12, 2009 (this time next year)
It took me
1 year
It made me
ReadyToDoItAgain!


Recent entries
create a product that sells 10,000units
Untitled 6 hours ago

Just have to finish remaining stock of 1700 units! Almost there!



find love (read all 4 entries…)
Untitled 2 days ago

I just watched the Graduate this morning.
And the last 10 seconds said it all.
How can you love someone you barely know, or have yet to talk at any depth with.

I think that when you think you “love” someone that you haven’t really gotten to know, it’s a result of letting yourself get carried away by the intoxicating emotions involved in getting to know someone new.

That becomes a pitfall towards finding real and sustainable love, because emotions are notoriously unstable. Without any concrete foundation, you leave yourself in a precarious situation. It’s like being drugged into playing pretend.

Although “love” like this is not real, it’s easier to obtain and faster to accomplish, and in this era obsessed with instant gratification and uninformed ease, it is no wonder why divorce has never been so prevalent, and why outlooks on love and relationships are becoming more and more cynical. We place ourselves in this position that make us vulnerable.

I guess with the passing of generations, the definition of love changes to mean different things. Before, at some point in the past, love meant finding a proper counterpart and forming a family acceptable to society, duty played more of a part than anything else. At other times, it was but for show.

What I want to say is that I want the word to attain a value that means more than duty or triggered emotion, maybe a coalescence of the two, and more attributes such as understanding and support.
It is an ideal situation, but I hope we all find it in our lives in one way or another.



Learn to love pushing myself past the wall (bec. the wall does not exist) (read all 2 entries…)
GOOD PAIN 1 month ago

Pain is a concept that has been given a bad connotation.
When in reality, it is the one true harbinger of growth.
Pain is not a hindrance. It is you who chooses to believe it is.

But there are many kinds of pain, and it is important to define the sort of pain that leads to growth.
It is the pain that defies your perceived limitations, the pain that scoffs at your anxiety, that goes against your feelings of distress, that mocks procrastination as an abomination of your reason for being.

It is this pain that settles only for your best self, and acts as a tool to smooth rough edges and construct bridges to reach destinations. This pain is the courage and discipline to do something you have the capacity to do, to be someone you want to be.

It is not the pain of loss, but the pain of being strong in the face of loss. Being strong enough to go on, and rise.
It is not the pain of being wronged or oppressed, but the pain of rising above the judgment that seeks to immobilize you, and to find happiness where you know it to be.
It is not the pain of thinking of what could have been, but the pain of shaping your fate as you would like it.

This is the pain that is good. Good pain as I define it for myself to be.

I leave it to my better judgment, based on the knowledge I have of myself and on my confidence that its perception of what is real from what isn’t is unclouded, to tell good pain from bad.

A life true to one’s reason and desires is one worth working at and dying for. It is one which has it’s definition shaped in my hands, one where good pain is exuberance and where settling for any less is living the greatest lie one can tell to one’s self.



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