I finally took that first step and made an appointment with a psychiatrist. She diagnosed me with bipolar disorder, which explains a lot, including why I didn’t improve on Zoloft or Wellbutrin. So, I am now on 400mg of Seroquel and I am thriving. I feel really content, and I am a million times less anxious. In addition, I am falling asleep the second I hit the pillow, rather than tossing and turning for hours—and I sleep straight through til morning! On top of the medication, I am going to the gym a few times a week with Anna, and I am eating much healthier. I am taking liquid fish oil daily (improves mood + all its other benefits) and vitamin c (for my skin/hair). I am working hard to keep the weight of (seroquel makes you gain quite a bit) but other than that I am feeling on top of the world.
I don’t want to be on medication for the rest of my life, so I will ride this out for awhile and then figure out my options.