I did it! Granted, I dropped one of my classes but I still got an A in another one so that means a first semester 4.0!
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My first semester I ended up dropping one of my classes, but I got an A in the other one!
Now I’m taking 5 summer courses and it should be fun. I hope. At least if my depression stays away.
It doesn’t look like this one is going to happen but the bad credit scores will fall off my report a few years from now, I guess.
DON’T USE CREDIT CARDS TO LIVE OFF OF.
Taking two classes this semester, one online and one in person.
God, am I glad I’m only taking two classes this semester to get used to it. I have all this free-form anxiety floating around about classes—what if I fail, what if I don’t have my depression under control, what if blah blah blah.
However, I did just get 5/5 on my first sociology quiz! I know it’s tiny but I’m still happy.
Next semester I’ll be taking two classes at the local community college, to start work on my RN certification.
I’m so fucking stoked. I just need more encouragement from EVERYONE, to remember that I can call on my friends & ask them for support, and to keep on using the skills I’ve learned to persevere.
Been doing this for approximately 40 days.
I’m really glad that I’ve been writing every day, but I’m worried I’m not saying the important stuff. Maybe that’ll come with time.
I adopted a beagle, named him Ronon, and have been going crazy over him ever since.
Totally worth it.
Edit: 2 years later, Ronon is still a happy and healthy member of my family. He’s been a great support to me in my struggles with depression and I love him to bits.
I just don’t think “losing weight” is the end-all be-all anymore. I’m going to get healthier instead, and if I lose weight because of that, fine. If I gain muscle mass and gain weight, I don’t care—what’s important is that I’m HEALTHY, not some number on the scale. Health. Not starving myself or dieting for the rest of my life.
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