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I’m so sorry that people have to go through this, but at the same time I am so glad that I am not alone. I just turned 27 not too long ago and shortly before my birthday it hit me. i have always had thoughts about life and death and how short life really is, but i could cope with it before. Now its like i have just began to really understand it and it scares me so badly. I don’t understand the sudden change.
The stress of it all has given me an uncontrollable fear of death as well as a constant thought of “I’m going to wake up tomorrow and I’m going to be an old woman”. i know life goes by fast and there’s nothing anyone can do about it, i just wish i new how to cope with the fears. The depression this is causing is making me feel as if I’m on the outside looking in watching each year pass in the blink of an eye. If a quarter life crisis is this bad I would hate to see how the others are going to go for me. I always thought of myself as a pretty strong person, but things like this make me wonder. Of course the fact that all of my friends are either in Iraq, or just living in different states makes things harder to deal with for the simple fact that I don’t have any one to vent to other than people online.
I always laughed at people when they talked about having a mid-life or quarter-life crisis, but now I understand and feel like a dope for being such a jerk. It is a true crisis and it takes a lot of courage to deal with one. It also takes a lot of strength to make life decisions while having a crisis, because at that point you just want everything to be perfect so you don’t have any serious regrets, but we all know it can’t be perfect because life isn’t perfect. I should have become a psychologist so i could have a better understanding of how the mind works and how to cope with moments like these.
