sayyadina

Ive been living with my man for eight years. Were not married technically yet, so when we do (get married) I ofcourse want to be a good wife.Or? I dont think so much is going to change. Im a good wife in my own opinion, but thats probably just because I tried so damned hard the first years with him. Learning not to try so hard is the best way to be a good anything, in my opinion. If my husband said to me “I want to be a good husband”, I would probably think he lost his mind or joined some weird cult.Its easy for me to ignore the importance of being a good wife, cause we have no children to brain-wash. Maybe Im aiming more towards being a bad wife, I dont know. My man totally accepts and supports all my feministic and eccentric visions as long as I let him have some of his “man”-things to himself like drinking, lying, being utterly immature about important things,expressing sexistic attitudes due to frustration and inferiority,in short – be the man he is. I just love him that way.

Ive tried for too long to rech this goal. Im now giving it up, in order to leave room for some new idea to emerge. Some things just need to rest.

I used to eat healthier some years ago, but it all stopped when I started to work. Now Ive been having all kinds of really unhealthy lunches for some years, mostly kebabs, or hamburgers. Ive been too tired to make home-cooked meals on work-days, and ordered pizza instead.Or stuffed myself at the chineese-restaurant. This diet, beer included, has made me very tired and a bit depressed. My goal is to quit the fast-food completely, add more veggies and youghurt in my diet, and eat red meat only if its really high-quality meat and no more than once a week.