secretsmile

ok am coming to the end of my degree at university and its time to ask myself “whats next?”. everytime i ask myself this i get depressed and i try really hard to not think about it. time is running out to make a descion if i do not decide now i could end up scrapping the bottom of the barrel for a job.
i know the decision i make now is not the end all and be all it is more of a catalyst in the chain of events in my life but then why is it so hard for me to just pick something and go for it. one reason might be the fact that i spent 3 years at university only to find am not really into my chosen subject. I just want to pick something thats right for me and that i wont regret.

ok i added this to my done list because i know one person that loves me God. But then i realised that i need to share this love. if you want people to love you, you have to love them. that means being kind, being there when they need you and all the other things that love is all about. Dont be selfish in wanting people to be there for you but never attempting to be there for somebody else. make a effort to notice when a friend needs your help and get in there. this goal has not being achieved to its full force just yet. my mission now is really to spread the love and by that i do not mean preach the word or any other christian term. i mean really love people lay your life down for someone and they will do the same. when i can say that i have loved a person can i truly say i am loved.

this was a scary one but i passed i need to do better in my final stage to get a first.