sertshark

Not only have I been playing guitar, but I’ve been learning the banjo. Something I’ve wanted to do. I’m proud of myself

I didn’t think I’d like a cruise. I like to schedule my own vacations, but it was nice to have someone else take you here and there. I loved them, and I have taken three! Now that we have a toddler, I want to go on a Disney cruise.

I wish I never got them. I have a few of them. I actually have respect for those that don’t have any tattoos because everyone has them. I am sick of seeing them on the small of women’s backs

I bought a digital, baby grand style of piano. Funny thing. The nicest old couple sold it to me. They sold it to me for $2,200. I asked them were they got it and they said “Costco”. This nice old man said he had just purchased it there for $2,600 but didn’t have room for it, so I figured it was a great deal. I buy it, used for $2,200. The next day, my wife and I are in Costco, and she says “Hey, there’s your piano”, and I look at the price tag and it says $1,900. That nice old couple took me. But I love that piano.

This would be very cool. I’d record it and make my family watch it over and over. And anytime people came over, I’d make them watch it.

It’s takes me too long to say what I mean. I know what I want to say, then I work up to it with an intro, then I start into what I was going to say, then I support what I was gonna say, and then I’m lucky if I don’t forget what the hell I was talking about. It would be easier if I just said what I wanted to say, and left it at that.

Too many people drop out. Too many people for one reason or another stop going and quit. Don’t be like them. Keep your eye on the prize! Once you graduate, you will have something that nobody could ever take away from you. And it will help you, but more importantly you will always remember how satisfying it was to finish. It’s just too easy to quit, don’t even consider it. Sooner than you think you will be done with this and in your career, so enjoy the ride, don’t forget to look around because it will be over soon enough. I miss being in shool.

I was actually training to run a marathon and I got hurt. I stepped on a little, itty bitty pebble while I was running and I tweaked my ankle. That did it. Training over. Then, I said “Hell with it” and kind of stopped thinking about it. Well, now I’ve been thinking lately that I’d like to do this.

There is no way I will be able to stop doing this, but I sure would like to. I overthink everything. It would be so much easier if I just stopped thinking about decisions, plans, vacations, yard designing, etc etc. When I have to make a decision about something, I completely immerse myself in information so my decision can be as educated as possible. It would be easier to just sit back and have the attitude of “Whatever happens, happens. The sun will still rise tommorrow.”

I spend too much time online, and I know I am not spending near as much as some of you out there. There is so much info online though, and so much stuff to see. But I know my time would be better spent reading. No wonder I have so many half-read books on my nightstand. The internet is EVIL!!!!!!!

I think about this all the time, and usually it comes down to not having enough time. We all know that’s not good enough. Taking time out of your day to help someone else is time well spent, I’d say. Actually, there is no better time spent.

I always had crooked teeth, so I never smiled. So my face was used to not smiling, you know? It’s like I trained my face to not smile. Finally, I went and got braces, and now that they are off, I smile a lot more. It’s nice to see photos of me with a smile, too bad it took so long. Now, I have to actually put an effort into smiling becuase I spent my whole life NOT smiling. They say it takes less facial muscles to smile than frown, but my frown muscles must be HUGE becuase they’ve had a lot of training. So now I have to build my smile muscles up.. Do they have ‘roids for smile muscles?

I am always joking at home, I don’t get it. At work I get my “game face” on too much. I enjoy doing a good job. I like having the reputation of being someone that gets the job done. I think people take me wrong though becuase most people don’t see me when I am being goofy, or joking around. Sometimes people don’t know how to take me when I do joke around. But I do have a sense of humor, it’s just that I like the job to get done right, and I expect the people that work for me to do the same. But you know, life is too short, and we can’t take our jobs with us. I know this.

I take things too serious sometimes. I have a very good sense of humor, but sometimes I get too defensive when I think someone is attacking me. And I am not the type of person to let something go. I work hard, and I take my job very serious, and even though I laugh a lot, I seem to take comments too personal. I mean so what if someone is attacking me? It would be better to just say “Oh, sorry you don’t approve of my way of doing things”, instead of getting pissed or attacking back. I’m putting this one high on the list.

Ok, I cuss much less than I used to, but still…. I need to work on this. Especially when I am hanging out with the boys, it is hard. An f-bomb adds that certain “pizzazz”, you know? It usually works, but I need to use it less.

What the #& happened to my *#&# vocabulary? I went to college, and developed some mad skills, then I don't know what happened. Now, I struggle for words, and if the computer didn't have spell check, I'd look retarded. Now it's hard to find words. So now, I just throw in a *#$ or a #@*& just to fill the gaps. Oh yeah, I need to cuss less too, I’ll have to remember to add that to the list.

It is hard to forgive, especially when you haven’t gotten any REVENGE yet. Once you’ve gotten your share of revenge, and you were able to have the satisfaction of looking at their miserable face, well then it’s EASY to forgive! But, forgiving without putting a bag of burning dog crap on their doorstep is hard. Revenge feels so good. And I’d like to find a way to be able to forgive people without having the need to get them back.

I have a one-year old daughter. Precious. It is hard to type this because she is climbing all over me at this moment like a little monkey, chattering away with her little baby talk. So I have to erase, and retype sentances. I have got to say that being a dad is the coolest thing in the world. Of all the things I have ever done in my life, nothing compares. I see that her self-esteem is in our hands, and her little open book of life is being written every day, and there are so many pages to fill. I have gladly accepted the responsibility of knowing all my actions directly effect her self-esteem and self worth, and I will do everything within my power to make sure she knows how special she is, no matter what pressures she feels in life, and that no matter what she can always go to her daddy with anything.

You know, sometimes I feel like I am a pretty good christian, at times. But when I actually sit and think about it, I feel like a crappy christian. I realize I could never measure up. Turn the other cheek?, not even. No way. Forgiving those who tresspass against me? No way, screw them, especially if they hurt me or my family. I realize Jesus even prayed for those who persecuted and hurt him, and there’s where I see how I could be a better christian. If it was me who was scourged, and spit on, and mocked, and disrespected like that, we’d have a different ending to the story. I could not be like him. Because instead, I feel like taking people who have unfairly hurt me, and hurting them right back…or at least I’d like to see them miserable, and sure, I know that’s wrong.

So what I am saying is, I should be able to forgive better, especially those who have hurt me the most.

...I want to write a GOOD song. Yeah, sure you’re all gonna say, who’s to say that my song is good or bad, I know. I think my problem isn’t writing a song, it’s keeping interest in it after I start. I’ve written so many songs, and after I get started, I never end up liking them. So I never finish. So maybe what I want to do is not write a song, but finish writing songs that I start.