I get a new fridge today. Yeah!!!
Acceptance of what I have in the present will lead to having more of the things I do want. At least that’s what Lester Levenson says. It’s worth a shot.
I have a problem with carbs. I try not to keep even the healthy ones in the house but occasionally I need carbs to keep me balanced. I have finally decided not to throw out the ezekiel bread and pasta this time. That’s usually what I do I eat a bit and throw the rest out. I have made a shelf just for complex carbs. I have pasted a big NO! on the shelf. Not that I can’t eat them but this way it will make me stop in my tracks before I do. I definitely have had enough carbs for this week and my goal for the weekend is no complex carbs. I am using my new shelf idea. I want to learn how to keep carbs in the house and eat them in moderation. :0!
Although I haven’t even started painting I realize that stating this goal this way is keeping me from doing it so I am letting it go and moving on.
I will keep looking but I have learned to love the place I’m in for the most part. It will do for now and I will keep looking. There is a new pad out there just waiting for me to find it. I will find it but I’m no so desperate now. I just keep looking.
I haven’t really done much painting for the last 3 years. I have rearranged my work space 50 times or more. I just gave away a bunch of painting and stored the rest in the garage. Clearing my space has helped and I have at least started to read the books I need to read but I still haven’t started to put brush to canvas. Procrastination in this area of my life is big these days.
I have known for a while now that I need to completely overhaul my life. I know if I change one thing everything starts to change. I get a little scared when things start too change that I didn’t focus on. Sometimes I don’t really know where it’s going. So again an old friendship is changing and I want it to go back to the way it used to be. That’s crazy I know. Change can be better even if I’m not sure where it will end up. I need to concentrate on the positive things in my life that am working to change. Somehow I must find faith that as other things change it will be for everyone’s highest good. Even though it scary right now and doesn’t feel that way.
So I am back to basics again. I got really depressed and gained 5lbs in a week and realized that that was not going to help solve any problems. I disconnected from FB and deleted a few bad friends from my phone and now I am back on track. Falling into the food trap again was just a mistake. Time to dust off and start again. I was almost to my goal weight and now I am back to having 20lbs instead of 15lbs to go. And I am having to deal with carb cravings again since I ate of few bad carbs that I never eat. Now I know why I don’t eat them. They make me want to eat more. I am currently shopping daily again. This way no extra food in the house to temp myself. Working out in the early mornings and doing my best to touch base with friends by phone. FB makes everyone lazy and then you get lonely bc people get used to not having a real conversation.
This show has really motivated me and got me pumped. I have started doing one workout in the morning and one in the evening instead of watching TV. I am sticking to my food plan and have really tightened it up. I am keeping “my eye on the prize” as one of the girls’ dad’s told her and just sucking it up. I am energized and my body is changing quickly after just one week. I feel so motivated and like I can do it this time. I suggest that everyone watch this show…again and again. It is really motivating and has lots of tips to help you with your goal planning. I love It
Well I’ve checked out 3 places so far. One was so beautiful with state of the art appliances but more than I’m willing to spend. The other two were just my price range but I’m not sure Encino is where I want to live. I am thinking I want to go further up the 101 to a more secluded place. I’m started to see that all this traffic and people is just too much. I am also looking at Woodland Hills, Calabasas area etc.
I’ve been in the same place since 1994. It want to find a place closer to the beach and my job. A nice one bedroom plus with well kept landscaping, lots of closet space, a beautiful kitchen and a room for my art. I want it to be pretty and peaceful with neighbors that practice love, tolerance, kindness and peace. I want to pay close to what I am paying now about $900 dollars. My landlord would as well be a person that practices love, tolerance, kindness and peace toward all. I guess this is my vision board. I have called one place so far that did not fit the bill. I see my future as being filled with adventure and love.
Well after trying the first few months of this year and not succeeding much I made a committment to the CEA-HOW diet plan. It is weighed and measured 3 meals no snacks. Also, I am doing Brazil Butt Lift. So far it’s day 2 and I’m not hungry. That’s amazing and I have energy and I can focus at work. It helps that I have had a few crazy people who have pissed me off lately. Anger has always helped me lose weight. It’s a great thing. I am so grateful for those controlling annoying people in my life because I get to use my anger to stay on course and lose weight. I love it!!! Thank you thank you I never thought I would love being angry but everytime I have actually lost weight it’s been started this way. Now I just need to figure out how to keep the momentum going and move up the emotional scale to peace. :)
I’m still too scared to get on the scale but I will soon. Sticking to the food and I’m not hungry and not eating when I’m just bored. Taking it one day at a time and I have to say so far so good.
Well yesterday I completed the project “Replace the brooch of my mother’s that I lost” I didn’t find it but at least I did all the footwork. Now I’m done. It’s off my plate. No more searching for what does now want to be found. This is part of Julie Morganstern’s book “Shed your stuff, change your life” Great Book! Yesterday because I was so focused on my project that I ate only 3 meals no snacks except water. I wasn’t hungry which was very different for me. Now I’m not saying this is good for me. Afterall my doctor says I should eat 5 to 6 small meals a day. My meals were not very big so I didn’t make up for it in bigger meals. A good thing. I will let that go and for today plan on my 3 meals 2 or 3 snacks. Breakfast: green shake, snack celery and almond butter, lunch: turkey sandwich, snack: chocolate shakeology Dinner: green salad and london broil, maybe some peas. The day has begun!
The past is gone along with one chocolate brownie cookie and a half a donut. Made me feel like crap yesterday, but today I feel great. 2 slice sprouted grain toast and poached eggs, cappuccino. Breaksfast was healthy and satisfying. Now time to move one start my day and enjoy. Today is all I have …the possibility to accomplish my goal.
So my fat pants are tight which is not a good sign. Yesterday, I made a big effort not to give into my emotional hungry. I know if I can do that for seven days, the habit of eating when I’m not hungry will basically go away. 7 days is all it takes for me. i know they say it takes 30 or 90 days to change a habit but for me if I can make it through the first 7 days I can do it. Today I am back at work which makes it a bit more challenging because I have to smell other people’s food. I can do it. Lots of water and just concentrate on my work. Wish me luck! Luck!
Oh yeah, I was counting. I put on my fat jeans and they are tight. I guess I’ve been in a bit of denial. I realize that I have been eating and avoiding things I need to do. I eat whenever the thought occurs to me to eat. Not today. Today is a new day. So I’m hungry right now but not really just bored. So I am drinking water and waiting for lunch which will be about 1pm. It is turkey sandwich day. Turkey, greens, mayo, mustard and 2 slices of sprouted bread. Lots of water and then waiting until dinner. Mid afternoon snack one tbsp almond butter and celery sticks. Dinner chocolate shakeology with flaxseed.
Today is my do nothing day. I had oatmeal and strawberries with a cappucino for breakfast. An egg and 2 ounces of jalapeno cheese for snack. Lunch was Chocolate Shakeology with coconut, strawberries and peanut butter. Snack 1 piece of jalapeno cheese and a 1/4 cup of cottage cheese. Dinner is cajun chicken soup with carrots peppers and roasted onions. Salad greens with olive oil and vinegar. And an orange for snack.
I have made it through day 2 with two adjustments. I added an extra snack at about 3pm of goji berries and cacoa nips. At Dinner I skipped the green salad and had 2 tablespoons of pb with an extra slice of bread.
For Tomorrow. Breakfast: espresso, almond milk a greenberry shake with an orange. Snack: 1/2 cup of cottage cheese and strawberries Lunch: Chocolate Shakeology Snack: celeary and pb Dinner: Veggie soup with added tofu green salad with olive oil and one slice of bread with a pat of butter.
Monday starts the work week so for time’s sake I will commit my food tonight for tomorrow: Breakfast espresso, almond milk and stevia; greenberry shake with one orange and ice and water Snack: 1/2 cup of cottage cheese with 1/2 cup of fresh strawberries Lunch: Chocolate shakeology ice and water Snack: 1 tbsp peanut butter, 1 tbsp almond butter and celery sticks Dinner: 1 1/2 cups of organic homemade chili, 2 cups green salad with olive oil dressing, 1 cup sauteed carrots. 1 piece of ezekiel bread with pat of butter.
And this night is over and tomorrow is another day.