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yay i got a new camera for christmas so i intend to use it as much as possible! it has so many functions on it – i cant wait to get started…. happy snapping everybody!

so since my last post, i have made a few decisions.. buy a luch bed, pot plant called tom and a nice lil outdoor setting.. as well as choosing a stranger as a housemate – i mean that was hard, but in the 2 months he has lived with me, i have not 1 complaint. definatly the best housemate to date!

but my photo shoot.. i have my first shoot for a magazine on the weekend – in swimwear. i told my mother – she tried to punish me! haha she was telling me there is no way i am to pose for a mag in swimwear.. so funny when i turned around and told her its my decision, im sticking to it and she should support me. a big decision for me to step out of my comfort zone, and you know.. i think i might even enjoy it!

so its been nearly 4 months since we broke up.. yeh i still love him.. but that will fade.. we have seen each other once or twice since, we actually made a date and caught up for a drink. it wasnt as weird as i thought it would be. it just felt like we were always good friends. upon reflection of our catch up though, i started to get a little worried about him. he just seemed stationary, like not going anywhere, just in the same place i left him at really. and i feel like i have been moving mountains over here! lol. weird really.. i expected it to be opposite.

it is still hard sometimes.. i mean christmas, staff parties and weddings are coming up.. all these events we have spent together before, i now have to face alone, which isnt so bad i guess. im in the process of planning a trip overseas, by myself. i think it will be liberating for me to do. i can feel the excitement already!

at the end of the day you realise that everything happens for a reason and if you cant figure it out, does it really matter? i just accept that these things happen whether i like it or not, its the way i handle them that makes my true character stand out.