shatteress

I am learning how to do this much better. The book, The Law of Attraction” is helping a lot. It teaches that your emotions, your heart, your feelings, will feel good when you are thinking of something that is moving you toward your inner purpose, and you will feel bad when you are thinking something that moves you away from your life’s purpose. They call it your “inner Guidence System”. Through this, you can tune into your soul, and direct your mind, thinking the thoughts that lead you on the path of the most meaningful life for you. It is a wonderful technique. It makes so much sense- it should be obvious! But we are not taught to listen to our hearts so much as we are told, over and over, to regard the world and “what is” as the greater reality. This is a mistake. The ultimate truth is your heart- it is within you, reality is within you. So disregard the world, and accept your heart’s authority. I have been practicing it, and it is beautiful. It feels like…. coming “home” or meeting God.

Recently, I hung out with some friends of mine, one of whom I am incredibly “drawn to” and have had a remarkable amount of affectionate impulses and feelings for some time now without really knowing what to do about it. Rather than trying to hide my inner desire the whole time and “act cool”, play it safe, protect myself, convince myself of false indifference, I allowed myself to really feel everything I felt in my heart, and I didn’t worry if it showed in my face, in my eyes, through my laugh, in my smile, or my words, or most of all, in my vibe. In fact, I focused a lot that night of letting what was in my heart, my extreme attraction to and appreciation for this person, BE my vibe. I enjoyed the hell out of it. I know it was tangible, that energy. And I found that I felt his vibe matched mine, and little signs of encouragement and compatibility led to more blatant flirtations which led to acts of open physical affection at the end of the night. It was magnetic. I just felt like… I was really being myself. I did not feel vulnerable, I felt empowered by that energy. I felt authentic.

This past weekend I went through half my room, dusting, organizing, throwing away old and unneeded useless things, and re-organizing the things I kept. My room is looking a lot better already and I’m enjoying the results! I got rid of a LOT of clothes, which is great, because my drawers were so overstuffed that I could hardly close them, and most of it was old stuff I had just hung onto for no reason and never even wear anymore. So the inside of my dresser is much more organized. I still have a few sections of my room that I need to work on, like my jewelry stuff and art stuff, but most of it is done. It feels good :)