shavasana

I’ve started decluttering, throwing out papers and shredding some of the confidential stuff. Doing a little bit everyday. I’ve cleared a little corner of the piles of matter in my cubicle – not much of a visible dent, but at least I’ve started somewhere.

It’s amazing how easy it is to declutter when you haven’t got any emotional attachment to the stuff anymore. It’s a bit of a surprise, but work actually gets easier and I function so much more efficiently when I don’t worry anymore about consequences, and any fallout if say I don’t do my work well enough. I wonder, if I can successfully transplant this mindset to my next job.

A friend said that the final months should be easy – no challenging / high-stakes projects would be assigned my way, just tying up lose ends and so on.

But the interim period from giving notice to actually leaving does have rough patches in the emotional sense – being labelled as quitter / deserter, and not being considered as part of the team anymore. (Maybe for the lucky ones, they can’t bear the thought of leaving a wonderful workplace.)

What other people say is just what they think. It costs them nothing to have opinions. And it shouldn’t cost me anything like lost sleep (but it does a little). I’m still human, and being treated with rudeness kind of sucks, but just have to grit my teeth and hang in there.

Knowing there is a definite end to it all is great – just thinking about life beyond my last day at work, and all that optimism comes flooding back :)

I’ve got no problem with vocabulary – I can remember single words and phrases and all, in fact I love collecting vocabulary phrases over everything else. But it’s always the grammar that is my weakest link. Got to dig out my old notes and revise them one grammar rule at a time!