I'm doing 5 things
turns out the new guy cheated Nigel ended up starting a relatinship with 1 of my friends n umm I’m alone
shi17's Life List
-
1. it want to be happier
1 person -
2. be more confident and be myself
1 entry . 3 cheers1 person -
3. learn to drive legally by the time i am twenty
1 entry1 person -
4. let myself be loved and also let myself love again
1 person -
5. Do very well @ Art and design and my other Cape subjects
1 person
How I did it
It made me
Elated 
How I did it: well my first love an I finally admitted our feeling to each other and he came up to spend the day with me at my home. When he was leaving he asked me to walk a bit with him and then he kissed me and I kissed him back. it was our first kiss. I had liked him for 5 years but after that kiss I made some wrong decisions n he made some wrong decisions and we aren't togeher Read how I did it…
It made me
succinct my ass 
How I did it: i made him ask the question then i made him wait for about to months then out of guilt i said yes. now that am with his ass am thinking of nigel like an ass . but i know i'll never find the boi i want so what d hell my dream boi doesn't exist...oh well Read how I did it…
It made me
this is wat happens 
How I did it: well i called Nigel(yes Nigel) asked to borrow his school tie was surprised he lent me. My sis dressed in my school uniform while her friend dressed in an other school uniform. we caught a bus together and went to the pavilion and my sis paid my $5 fee. It was cool until my so call friends saw her in my uniform and threatened to tell the principal. i learn t that i have no real friends and am officially a dark loner girl. Read how I did it…
See all "How I Did It" stories...
Recent entries
he and his girlfriend aren’t toghether anymore. He wants me to be in a relationship with him a serious one but i have a problem. I like this other dude who is everything i have ever wanted and is really cool. Now they want me to choose. I nearly made out with Nigel he leaned in twice but i backed away i wanted to make sure that us was what he wanted of course he said yes and of course i believe him.
Now all that is left for me to do is choose. I am really into this new guy but nigel an i have history and i love him. Now am stuck…this sucks. Does anyone have any advice for me??please i need some advice someone help me is there anyone outthere? or am i just talking to myself when i write? maybe am crazy begging for help on the internet where no one knows me…...oh well but if anyone can offer some help preferably before this week is up then thank you for your help.
Just for the record we didn’t kiss but a part of me really wanted to. nigel and i have never really been an official couple everytime we try to get together we back off because someone else wants what we want. we are so much a like. We both have loved each other for 5 years and he says am the only thing keeping him back from moving away to a different country. But i don’t want to hurt this other guy because a part of me has grown to lve him. He is one of my closest friends. At this moment i am stumpted nevertheless i know i love Nigel but i also love the other guy.
He asked me to prom and i said….......yes. My heart was louder than my head and in the panick i answered his question with a yes. Am having second thoughts about it though. He is still with his girlfriend and the only reason why he asked me is because the little girl isn’t allowed to leave her house at night time. Anyways how you make your bed you lie in it. Am such an f*ing loser, here i am not wanting to be second best and i am right back where i started. someone help me please!!! am confused.
