shifax

i cant help but think of him
i hate him
and the funny thing is i hardly spoke to him before
he might turn out to be the type of guy i would hate
thats a good thing i guess since it will stop me from falling for him
but i dont know if thats a good thing
in the long term yeah
but grr i like him
im scared tommorow in school i know he’ll talk to me
last time he wanted to show his mate who i was and took him an hour to find me
sorry but thats so cute!!
im gonna hide =D

i decided after my first breakup i wont get into another relationship
basically the prick i was with was a lying cheating freak!
plus my parents are really strict and dont want me going out with a boy
and the fact that i did and went behine their back made me feel so fucking guilty
i promised myself that i wouldnt go into one again
but its horrible
becuase i just started college
and my main focus was to work as hard as i can so im able to go to a really good uni
but recently i had this crush on this guy
realllllllly cute too =[
and found out yesterday
he liked me as much as i did
i only wanted this thing to be a one sided thing
but i really want him =[
but its so messy becuase
and the fact that i really like him makes me not want to hurt him by telling him im not intrested when really i am =[
i hate this =[

he'll get in the way of my studies
hes not the same type of religion as me (big deal in my   family)
i'll be breaking my promise
if my parents find out im fucked! 
this relationship wont get anywere

well
guess what
I GOT MY RESULTS
and it wasnt what i was expecting
which means its not a good thing
but
my results
are quite good i guess
maths-B
Business-B
Food tech-B
English lanuage-B
science (year 10)- B
science (year 11) -A
art- A*
english lit-C
spanish-C

so 1 a* 1 a 5 Bs 2 Cs

i wish i got more As like in english and in maths
its so annoying!!!
but i didnt fail
any subject
so yay!
but i decided that im gonna be picking
chemistry biology art
and im still fussing on maths =[