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I’ve tried to be more aware of this the past few days, and to not be so reactive. When something happens I’m trying to let it go, instead of letting it get to me. I’m also trying to get out of my habitual thinking ruts – trying to practice compassion more when a stranger is doing something annoying, instead of just viewing him/her as an annoyance.

I’ve been trying to be more aware of what I eat. I want to cut out processed food, and to eat more fresh food. Luckily, I really enjoy cooking, so this gives me an incentive to do that more.

I tend to snack a lot, so I’ve tried to find healthier substitutes for the junk I like to snack on…
I’m trying to eat yogurt and fruit instead of ice cream and candy. And lately I’ve been making popcorn on the stove top (instead of buying bags of chips).

Last night, I made a caramel apple (ok, so not the healthiest treat, but it’s fresh and still healthier than a pre-made dessert!). I also want to stock up some tasty but healthy drinks – herbal teas, tonic water and such.

I’m also trying to eat more vegetable-based meals. Last night I ate fresh spring rolls filled with a tuna salad I mixed up (tuna, mayo, lemon juice, Vietnamese chili sauce, chopped up lettuce, onions, bell pepper) – mmmm!

I don’t take anger out on others and I don’t break things, but I know I have an issue with anger. I get easily frustrated when things don’t work (for example, when my laptop is working too slow), and I’ll feel so enraged in a matter of seconds.

The ways my anger does manifest itself are for me to start swearing a lot, yelling to release my frustration, and sometimes hitting an inanimate & unbreakable object (like my bed, etc).

I really need to find healthy outlets for my stress. I also think I need to change my mindset – to learn to let go of things and not be such a perfectionist, to not expect the world to work a certain way. I think meditation can help me become less reactive, exercise can be a good stress release, and nurturing and strengthening my relationships and social support can help a lot.

The info on this site really helped me understand some of the unhealthy mindsets I have, and made me realize I need to change some things:
http://www.apa.org/topics/controlanger.html