After about 6 years on the internet I am typing this without looking at the keyboard. It is purely practice and repetician. Spend as much time on the internet as you can, write stories in ms word and talk on msn. It takes time if your not using a programme, but you will get it eventually.
sibbysaffron's Life List
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1. Stop being depressed
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2. Make friends
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3. make more guy friends
81 people -
4. Get into academic extension classes
1 person -
5. Learn guitar
3,063 people -
6. Become a musician
141 people -
7. Get rich
2,078 people -
8. develop a personal style
18 people -
9. be scene
59 people -
10. Get a boyfriend
2,439 people -
11. Be vegan
171 people -
12. Eat organic
208 people -
13. Be popular
395 people -
14. Be straight edge
23 people -
15. Be more fun
49 people -
16. Finish high school
543 people -
17. Become a veterinarian
230 people -
18. Stop taking anti-depressants
41 people -
19. Lie less
63 people -
20. Learn to hack
598 people -
21. Learn Japanese
9,741 people -
22. Go to Japan
3,333 people -
23. Move
857 people -
24. Gain weight
3,066 people -
25. Walk the dog
21 people -
26. Be normal
87 people -
27. Read the bible
3,232 people -
28. Increase my iq
12 people -
29. make scene friends
3 people -
30. make emo friends
98 people -
31. Stop going to bed late
11 people -
32. own my own home
1,373 people -
33. become a mensa member
10 people
I’m a bit wierd. I listen to music most people don’t get, and I just do what I feel like, even when that means going shopping wearing fluffy pink cat ears. So as a result, I have trouble making friends. I have a few friends, but though we spend a fair bit of time together we’re not that close since we don’t have that much in common. And even then, I suspect they’re not true friends. I have trouble keeping a conversation going, and I’m pretty sure I’m the only 15 year old in my school without a real friend. So what can I do?
Depression seems to be hereditary. All of the women on my mothers side of the family are. I, personally was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 5, and have been on medication for it since I was 7. I’ve tried to get off of the medication, but I just go downhill. My mother is extremely anxious, freaking out about little things, and I am now becoming the same way because of it. I’ve seen my depression dissapear in 3 days of being away from my mother, and though I love her it seems she is the worst thing for me, and I hate to admit it but I avoid her because she just brings me down to. I’m moving out as soon as I can, leaving the country if possible, but I’m only 15 so that could be five years away, which seems like forever and I feel so helpless in the meen time. I just hope that the anxiety wont have gripped me before I can move out, before it’s to late for me to kick it so I can be happy for the first time in my life.
