simmo32

My husband and I were married in April 2007. I was so happy, even though I didn’t have the support of my own mother, I was determind to be happy with my new life.
Things were going great for a while and then in the past 8 months, it feels like we fight all the time.
I love him so much, but I feel like everything I do puts him 2 steps in front of me. I feel like I’m almost working for him and when it get’s to me loose it. I know I shouldn’t but I scream for 5 mins then I go quite, only talking when I’m spoken to.
I wonder if he’s wanting a 1950’s wife. On many occasions I’ve asked how I can make him happy. Last night I asked him what he wanted from me as a wife. He said why bother. I feel like i’m a bad person. Isn’t a wife’s role to support and love her husband and to make him as happay as possible. I’ve failed not just once but over and over again.
I just don’t know what to do, would a break from our relationship help me to become more appreciative of what I’ve got, or would it drive him further away. Should I try and learn how to become a 1950’s wife? but what if I can’t do it? What if i’m so useless that I can’t get it right?
I know I’ve gone up two dress sizes and i’m trying to loose the weight, but would his really help? I’dont know.

I hope that by learning that my husband comes first, no matter what it cost’s me, by becomming the 1950 style wife and improving my looks I can become the best wife that my husband could ever want.
I also have to remember that my problems are just that mine and I should try and keep them to myself.

I don’t want my husband to resent me. I want him to be able to say “look there’s my wife”, I want him to be proud that I belong to him and I just want to make him smile and look at me the way he did 4 years ago.

I’m a failure now but I hope that I can become the best wife I can.