I'm doing 14 things
I went to Binghamton University in New York.
Its not right for me.
I’m transferring for my spring semester.
36 days.
I can’t wait.
maybe this will be the one…
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1. win my "battle"
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2. Go to the College thats right for me.
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3. Get my PhD in Social Work
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4. stop loving my best friend as "more than a friend"
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5. get closer to God
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6. stop being so judgmental of others
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7. ride the transsiberian railway
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8. make better use of my free time
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9. live in chicago
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10. bikeride the pinellas trail
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11. create somthing beautiful
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12. identify and understand certain feelings within myself that i may be suppressing
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13. love without fear of rejection or pain
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14. Stop fearing death
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How I did it
It made me
at peace 
How I did it: it was very hard, but as the time past it became easier to accept. i was able to heal only after over a year of prayer, reflection, and pain. i had to go through the stages. at first i was in denial, i couldn't believe she was actually gone, that she wouldn't be returning home from the hospital this time. then i became angry. i became angry at god, and at myself, for everything i thought i could have done to be a better friend. then … Read how I did it…
It made me
relieved 
How I did it: when i first started jr. year i was nervous, i started thinking about college and adulthood and i was scared, i didn't feel ready. over the course of this year however i have grown a lot and now i cant wait for college and being on my own! seriously i'm counting down the days! :) Read how I did it…
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Recent entries
I am in love with my best friend. when i am around him i feel happy, safe, appreciated, and loved. there is no one i would rather spend time with, his company is my favorite. he has been there for me more than any other guy, and as much as any best friend i’ve ever had. he is brilliant, and one of the very few people i consider truly superior to myself. and physically, i’ve never been turned on by anyone more in my life. i want him physically just as much as i want him emotionally, if not more (something i’m not used to).
i had a lot more typed out.
i have a lot more to say.
but i had to delete it because i realized that i couldn’t post it. it would be to obvious if anyone that knew me ever read it. and even though none of my friends know i’m on 43 things, or to my knowledge even know what it is, i just cant take the risk.
i don’t want this. i hate it. i hate falling for someone i cant’t have and i would do anything to change it.
i wish i had someone to talk to about this, because this secret is a heavy burden to bear. but the people that i normally talk to about these kind of things, including him, are to close to the situation and i’m too scared. so for now i just have to keep it to myself, and pray that my feelings for him go away, because the pain of loving him is to great.
I have 2 “dream schools”
I would be elated to go to either one of them for college.
i got (in my mind) a GREAT ACT score that I’m very happy with, but my first dream school prefers the SAT.
i have taken the SATs once already. i got an 1190. this puts me in the 42th percentile at the first of my two “dream” schools, and in the 59th percentile of the second. Definitely not good enough.
a 1290 would put me above the 75th percentile for both schools which is satisfactory.
so that is my goal.
i take the SATs for the second time in early October.
so my goal is, from now until school starts, to devote 5 hours a week studying. This for me, is huge. I am not good at studying, and i usually do “just enough” to get a B or higher in all my classes…except for math. But if i stick to this study plan, i feel there is no way i WON’T be able to raise my score 100 points, so that’s why I’ve created it to be so vigorous.
with all of the things i’m doing this summer including camp, several trips, and a class on FLVS, it will be a challenge to find the time, but even more so the drive within myself to do 5 hours of sat prep each week!
lets hope i can suck it up, and get my act together!
