and I’ve lost 4 pounds!
And let me tell ya: it is AWESOME to see such instant results but I’M SO FREAKING TIRED OF MEAT AND CHEESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bleh.
This is taking forever!
I emailed my future supervisor and mentioned that HR hasn’t contacted me but I’m assuming I should put in my two weeks at my current job. And they said I should WAIT. !!! There is a ton of paperwork that needs to be signed so nothing is officially done until its all finished. (I’m actually transfering from one department to another and this is one of the four jobs that I have.)
Well, good things come to those who wait.
I’ve already got the position so….
Yep- I started the Atkins diet on Monday along with not drinking and let me tell you- the first two days, I barely got off the couch. Day Three- morning was H~LL!!! I had no energy – pure fatigue. Then about afternoon time I got energy and it has totally sustained! I’ve lost 3.5 pounds already! Dang!
What does suck is, on this diet, the book tells you what liquors DON’T have carbs…. GRRRR But since I can’t drink 99 Bananas (the sugar flavoring is carbs) ... I done ok. I tried a drink with Bacardi and Club Soda- but yeah, reread that- Bacardi and Club Soda… gag! So I couldn’t even finish it and technically I am not supposed to have any alcohol in the first two weeks of the diet.
I think refocusing my attempt at my goal is making a world of difference. The more I was concentrating on ‘not drinking’ the more I thought about ‘drinking’. But since I have incorporated it into another goal, it seems to be more successful.
I am concerned that once this diet creates more and more positive results, I’ll think I get get by with ‘just having one’ and blowing it all. But it hasn’t happened yet and it’s a 50/50 shot so I’ll root for the positive one!
That’s all for now.
Been preparing all weekend for today. Starting a new diet today and everything. Got my starting weight and I’m giving myself two weeks to give it all a shot. Just stating a goal and going to try my darndest to meet that goal!!!!!!
I think I’m ready.
How’s everyone else hangin’ in there?
Peace.
I drank 7 lil bottles!! Yep. But that was yesterday and today is all mine.
I woke up and started reading bits and pieces of “The Tao of Sobriety.” It’s a little bit corny to me, sometimes, but it has great points.
And yesterday evening I found out that I GOT THE JOB! I have a hard time admitting, being that I am an outgoing funloving person, that I have been unhappy for sooooo long. This new job is exactly what I need to move on. Move to another stage in my life and I don’t want that stage to include alcohol. Not anymore. It CAN’T have anything to do with my life.
Sometimes I wonder if this site makes me think more about alcohol and bring it into my thoughts and then I realized- this site, with the help of each and everyone of you, reminds me that I AM on the right track. I am consciously putting out effort to make change happen… for the better.
I feel charged to try even harder for DAY ONE. I don’t care if it’s the 900th time- it’s a start.
My new goal is to take time, right when i wake up to remind myself of my goals; where I want to be; picture myself in that place; take a deep cleansing breath and then start my day.
Focus. I need to take time to focus on how I want my day to go. So when those annoying voices that take over and convince me to go to the liquor store will realize that they weren’t part of the plan for the day.
Who know’s? But thats what I’m planning to do.
I got called to come in tomorrow and meet with the two people that I interviewed with. I’m guessing that they aren’t calling me in to tell me that I didn’t get the job, ... right?
Things are on the up and up!!!
YEAH!
Here we go again. Day One.
It’s as though my mind was convinced that I am a non-drinker while I am sipping on booze. grrrr
Not sure what else to say.
Still trying…
Not sure why. I was in the best mood yesterday. Got two lil’ bottles in the afternoon and got the ball rolling. Without even thinking much about it, I got 3 more in the afternoon. Woke up at 4am tossing and turning and full of self-loathing. And a headache.
I feel like a broken record.
I’m going to just think of this as hitting a speed bump. Not a set back. Not all is totally lost. It was one bad day but I am going to pick up where I was and keep going. Keep the ball rolling and try not to beat myself up.
Sigh.
Last nights sleep started with tossing and turning but it was somehow totally different from the ‘detoxy’ tossing and turning. Had weird dreams, too.
I woke up this morning and was still really drowsy and almost automatically I asked myself how much I drank last night AND I GOT TO ANSWER “NOTHING”!!!!
Very happy about that! Motivation for the day!
Hope you all make it through the weekend, healthy and sober! I’m going to do my best as well!
Peace.
not a whole lot of energy and still kinda grouchy.
I feel fat. Not bloated but the weight I’ve gained from drinking seems twice as much as it does when I’m buzzed. Ya know? I feel gross. But it took years of drinking to get this way and it’s not going to disappear in a week.
Concentration and focus isn’t that sharp either. I kinda wanna read but then I realize I havent been paying attention to the words. Then I watch t.v. and I just flick stations. As for going outside to do anything, bleh. No thanks.
But I have eaten well; taken vitamins; drank green tea with breakfast. Avoided soda. (After eating dinner, my stomach seems to be saying, “What is this? This isnt alcohol liquid! This is solid food! What am I suppose to do with this?)
Daughter is going to the movies with a friend and lets hope I don’t decide to ‘run errands.’
I can’t wait for this stupid fog to lift.
is on vacation and they will make their decision in a couple more weeks! Yikes.
Hopefully “Good things come to those who wait,” applies here.
And I am sooooooooooo grumpy! Dang! I think I got a combo withdrawal going on: since I havent been boozing, I’m not smoking half as much.
Whatever. I’d rather be grumpy and sober than drunk and foolish.
I’m eating better; taking my vitamins; and drinking plenty of water and green tea. Oh, and avoiding sugar. I typically quit drinking and load upon soda. Not this time, at least not so far. If a soda keeps me away from the booze than I’ll have one.
Ok, that’s all for now. I’m going have my chamomille and put my grumpy butt to bed.
;)
(I’m house sitting (and pet sitting) again and have to come home to nab some computer time.)
I’m on DAY TWO!!! :)
Just keeping busy: reading; watching trash t.v.; playing bocchi with my daughter; etc…
I got groceries in the car and have to get back to the house so I’ll check in again soon.
Oh oh oh! Yesterday I had to go to the dmv and drove right past the liquor store! Nothing!
Hoping this sticks & hoping everyone else is good too!
~Peace.
Withdrawals here I come. And I have to make it stick this time because my kidneys and liver feel swollen and sore.
And today is Day One! grrrr I drank a little on Friday night and then a little more than a little yesterday.
Daughter is coming back from her Dad’s and that’ll help…
Last POSITIVE comment day ended with one small airline bottle. (1.68 ounces) And yesterday afternoon, the same. But that is about 8-10 ounces less than I’ve been having for years so I’m not going to beat myself up. I’m going to keep moving forward! I’m still going through withdrawals. Which suck. But I do like the bonus of sleeping better!
And I feel good about today. No need for 1.68 ounces, right?
OK, hope you are all doing well and I’ll get a chance to read your latest entries when I get back from work. Peace.
