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I will finally graduate at the end of June, just 4 more days to go! It has been a fantastic 2 years because I have experienced and accomplished so much as well. I have fulfilled an important dream and I can finally settle down!

Congratulations to myself! :)

He’s going back to his country and will marry someone else next year. I thought that I could be cool about it and be happy for him but I guess I didn’t realize that my feelings for him were that strong. It hurts a lot and I cried for so many nights.

The emotional part of me wants to hold on to him so much but the rational part of me tells me to move on. Anyway, I’m hoping that out of sight out of mind. I will give myself time to grief until graduation day which is at the end of Jun. When I return to my country, I will close this chapter in my life and start afresh.

Looking back now, even in my heartbroken state, I was glad that I had the courage to confess my feelings to him. Because I know that after all my tears, I can truly move on without any regrets or what-ifs. I don’t know if I will find someone else that I will love as much, but at this point in time, I am glad to have met someone that I could love with all my heart.

In order to get over him, I know that I cannot see him ever again. So I don’t plan to meet up with him even if I travel to his country. But I hope that maybe one day in the far off future, that if we are destined to meet again, I will finally be able to smile at him and be happy for him from the bottom of my heart.

Thanks to the grace of god, I have finally finished reading the whole bible today on 23 June 2007! :)