I took a long break from having dreams, and that period served me well. It left me feeling content and complete in the present moment without having to add anything to it in order to be happy and at peace, but now I’m feeling drawn to start having some sort of a vision for my future again. I believe I’ve got my health to the point where it’s not likely I’ll die any minute so I think it’s okay for me to start dreaming a little again instead of having to be spiritually mature all the time and simply stay present accepting unconditionally whatever hell I am in. :-) Regardless of what happens, I’m happy already, but life is an exciting adventure and if I’m physically able to, I’d like to explore everything the world has to offer.
In my current dream vision, I spend May, June, July and August in Finland, and otherwise travel abroad. I actually wouldn’t mind spending the whole year in Finland because I love living here right now, but my health can’t handle the long winter anymore so going abroad is the best option. In this vision I’ve also created a job for myself that I can do anywhere. Currently I’m investing to make a living (although at the moment I mostly try to keep the inflation from eating what I have, and am not too focused on making more money), but it is definitely not my passion, but simply something that has worked well for me for purely financial purposes. However, in my dream vision as I have more energy, I’d like to switch to concentrating on things I’d really enjoy doing and try out if I could make a living out of them. I’ve a lot of experience running popular websites, forums and blogs, which I think would serve me well while trying out being a professional blogger. It’s tough to make a living that way when you write in Finnish, but I can’t see any harm trying. There are also several authors and bloggers writing in English (whose work isn’t copyrighted) that I’d want to try translating into Finnish. If I get good at it, maybe I could be brave and try translating Healing and Recovery by David R. Hawkins into Finnish… it’s a book I’d recommend for a lot of people I know but they don’t know English well enough to read it, so translating it would be a very personal project.
My biggest passion at the moment would be to become a healer. I can’t see myself making a living that way, though, because I wouldn’t want to ask for much money from people who are in a bad place with their health and lives and truly need my help. So in my dream vision I’d spend a few hours a day healing people almost for free, and would then get passive income online.
Generally though, the vision I have for my life is very simple: I want to connect with more kindred spirits, enjoy the sun, spend a lot of time with dogs, go for long barefoot walks, enjoy a healthy body that is able to run again, switch between spending time in big cities and in nature, improve as a healer, raise my level of consciousness, grow as a human being, have discussions with fascinating people, let love flow freely through me, eat healthy food, embrace freedom, treat everyone with kindness and compassion, swim in warm tropical seas, have a little romance in every day, take one step at a time, honour my opportunity to live by living my life fully. I want to do what I’m meant to do, not what I used to think I wanted to do. I’ve completely let go of the idea of being an author and a doctor, and am just open to all possibilities. I want life to be able to use me for what it needs me most for.
Since I’m only about to get my first dog ever, I obviously can’t know yet how terrible or good I am with dogs when it comes to my own, but from the experience I’ve with dogs so far, I feel very drawn to that direction as well. For the past couple of years, I seem to have started to have a strange connection with animals, and especially dogs – many have wanted to follow me and I’ve been able to go for walks with them without leashes, sometimes with as many as six dogs at a time. I don’t ‘speak dog’ all that well, and although I know the basics of dog psychology, I’m definitely not that great at it either. But I’ve found it easy and effortless to connect and communicate with dogs through using energy, and have had no problems controlling a few dogs without leashes. It could be that I’m about to discover that I’m absolutely horrible with my own dog and end up ruining her completely, but if not… maybe someday, someway, I might work with dogs some way or another as well.
I feel no pressure to do or be anything special anymore. I wake up with a lightness in my being every morning, not needing the day to make me happy, not having to accomplish any goals. But I couldn’t lose my love for life and adventures, wanting to embrace the unknown, discovering new sides of the world. Currently I feel most drawn to meeting a lot of people, improving as a healer, and, as silly as it probably sounds to most people, connecting with dogs. Some things are very challenging in my life at the moment, but these three aspects of it are going amazingly well. I’m definitely exactly where I’m supposed to be.