What is your strongest foreign (non-native) language? If you feel like it, write a sentence or two in that language :)
It’s been seven years since my mother died and four years since my best friend committed a suicide. In a way it’s hard to believe it’s been that long, but at the same time it almost feels as if I had known them in a different, past lifetime… It’s strange to remember how I used to think I could not live without them, yet now the idea of having them in my life seems so vague and distant that in a way I’m not even sure if I actually knew them or if they only existed in my imagination and now in my memories…
I started thinking about this after I saw the “Who can’t you imagine your life without?” question in the random questions goal. Maybe I’ll come off as a horrible and cold person now, but I’ve learned quite a few times that I can live without people I thought I couldn’t survive without, so I can’t come up with anyone. In the end I only really need myself.
Not that I wouldn’t want to have people in my life… absolutely, I love several people I’ve in my life and wish they could be in it forever… but everything is only temporary even though I’d sometimes fool myself to see permanence.
Coffee or tea?
Freedom or security?
Modern or classic?
TV or movie?
Dogs or cats?
Stability or adventure?
Math or English class?
Candy or ice cream?
Video games or board games?
River or ocean?
Mac or PC?
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- Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
- Are you usually late, early or right on time?
- Do you prefer to call or text?
- Do you like window shopping?
- How tall are you?
- Do you tan or burn?
- Is there life after death?
I already take good care of my teeth (I brush them twice a day, floss daily, my diet is excellent for teeth, etc.) but now that it seems the time has come to take my wisdom teeth out, I want to try whether I could still postpone that for a while by adding a couple of new things in the mix. If this doesn’t work, that’s okay, and then my lovely dentist will get the pleasure to take my wisdom teeth out (and I’ll be so happy to get rid of them!), but whenever I can skip unnecessary medical operations, no matter how small (like this one), I for sure do just that.
So, some new stuff to try:
- Rinsing my teeth with sea salt + MSM water twice a day (I don’t know what verb I should use there… I’d keep this water in my mouth for half an hour every day on minimum.)
- After every meal, rinsing my teeth with coconut oil (again using a wrong verb here but couldn’t come up with anything better… I should keep the coconut oil in my mouth for 20-30 minutes on minimum after every meal.)
- Possibly trying to replace toothpaste with sea salt and MSM
- Eating less/no sweets (which would mean giving up all berries for me) and possibly eating less frequently… maybe trying out a K2 vitamin supplement again
I think I’ll give this a month and if it doesn’t work well enough, then it’s time for a dentist appointment.
- What are you listening to right now?
- Do you collect anything?
- When you were in school, did you sit in front or the back?
- What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite/same sex?
- Do you believe in karma?
- Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
- Do you prefer British or American spelling of words?
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For some reason I’ve felt like I’m slowly losing the hold of my determined, optimistic self lately. I don’t know why now; sure things aren’t going so well, but they’ve been so much worse and yet I managed to maintain a positive attitude, so I’m not sure why I’m feeling like this now. Somehow I just feel like I’ve no mental energy left (in addition to being exhausted physically). Especially when I’m interacting with people in real life, I can’t even recognise myself in the way I interact with them. I’m not treating them badly or anything, but I just haven’t been that bubbly, happy, talkative, smiling person lately. I just feel tired and empty. And plain sad.
Consequently I’m not doing the things I should be doing in order to get healthy because they require determination and more self-discipline than I currently seem to have. Which makes me feel even worse physically, which in turn makes me feel even worse psychologically. Not the best situation to be in and yet I don’t feel capable of finding any more self-discipline anywhere inside me. I literally feel as if I had used all of the self-discipline I had over the years and now I don’t have any of it left. Things like sticking to my treatment and giving it on time no matter what are something I usually do on an automatic mode which enables me to just do it, clear up my mind of thoughts and not think whether I’d like to do it or not; I just do it without thinking. Lately I’ve been thinking and not doing, and now I feel like I’ve no energy left even for thinking.
I don’t want to bore you with the details, and I’m not necessarily looking for any advice, so I’m just going to say that I’ve no other options but to stick to this treatment. There are no alternatives that would be suitable for me. I’ve a very holistic view on health, but nothing (in addition to a bone-marrow transplant) can replace this one treatment for me. I either find the self-discipline to stick to it or then I’m without it. And being without it just isn’t an option – I delayed it just a few days this week and I’m still feeling way worse than usual because of it. So much worse that I might have to go to the hospital to receive intravenous antibiotics.
I guess I’m just going through those rough times that always pass. It’s not like I’ve never had them before, but it’s been such a long time I’ve felt like this last time that I thought I’d be psychologically strong enough nowadays to handle my health issues without them bringing me down. Guess I was wrong.
There are some things that could be tried to make my treatment easier for my body but I’m not sure if I’m going to get my doctor on board. I’m always terrified to even mention to him everything hasn’t been going perfectly because he takes it as a personal attack and thinks I must mean he’s a bad doctor. (Just for the record… he’s a horrible doctor. But I don’t have any other options because he’s the only person that treats my kind of health issues; other doctors don’t dare to take responsibility for them because they feel they don’t understand them at all. Which is true but my doctor doesn’t understand them any better than they do.)
I guess I just had to get this out of my system… after all, like I said, I don’t have any real options here, so it’s time to stop thinking and start doing again. And start planning a strategy on how to possibly suggest some things to my doctor (he hates it when patients have their own ideas, because that obviously means they’re attacking him personally and accusing him of being a bad doctor). I’d rather not do that though because in worst case he’s going to take this treatment away from me. That might sound absurd, but it’s not like he hasn’t done other crazy things when he’s been feeling insecure about himself before…
What kind of a relationship do you have with sex? Did you wait until you were married, or is sex simply a fun way to bond with people whether you’re in a relationship with them or not? Something in-between?
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So for those who don’t know, I’m looking to buy something similar to the shoes in that picture. I’ve never seen barefoot shoes sold in Finland so I might have to buy them abroad or from an online store… They obviously aren’t the same as walking barefoot, but still an improvement compared to normal shoes. I’d especially like to use them for running because it’d be good to have some protection for my feet, yet keep the barefoot feel.
My friend already announced that she won’t spend time with me in public places when I’m wearing these shoes, haha… poor her, I’m always embarrassing her with something :D
My dear fellow Finns, have you seen this kind of shoes being sold somewhere?
fresh air, good food & water, being young, lazy late summer days (not that it’s a very late summer, but it hasn’t been so summery lately so it hasn’t really felt like July), self-discipline, hugs, card games, long discussions, spending time alone, rest & sleep
It’s so noticeable quiet on 43Things nowadays that I can’t be just imagining it… So strange how quickly the atmosphere has changed after all of the issues the site has had. I obviously still use it and I’m going to continue doing so, but still I find myself being less and less interested in coming here… It seems many others must feel the same; my subscription feed has never been this empty and it seems fewer cheers are given around. The lag time affects too, of course, and many comments and entries don’t show up in my subscription feed at all.
I wonder whether there’s something we could do to get everything back to normal? I absolutely loved this site back then when it was more active and user-friendly… such a shame it’s not like that anymore.
Whether you can observe a thing or not depends on the theory which you use. It is the theory which decides what can be observed.
—Albert Einstein
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