skelseymarie

I often wish I was making more art. Painting, sculpture, drawing and such. It used to be a big part of my life, but I find now more and more, it seems like I dont have time for myself and art. I dream about creating, and I think I need to make more time in my life for artistic passtimes.

so romanticky, and shouldnt be hard considering i live on the rainy westcoast ;p

I think I need to work on trusting others. I feel like sometimes I sabotage my self because I get paranoid about what people really think vs. what they are saying. I know it’s mostly in my head, but it hurts my relationships and I want this untrusting to end.

I think I can reach this goal by always saying my true feelings to others and they should respond in kind. Maybe any thoughts I am holding back are making me feel like others are holding back too. It makes me feel guilty, but then I get suspicious about why I feel guilty and how it may be the other person that is making feel me that way. But really I do realize it’s me being paranoid. oh kay well I guess that’s step one.