Kinda breaks my heart actually.
I don’t know if he will ever be mine, even after all that has happened to and between us.
But I’m glad it happened, and I’m glad I had the guts to tell him how I felt. What decision he makes, who knows. And in some ways it doesn’t even matter. I’ve laid myself bare, and left it in the hands of the gods. It’s a good feeling to know I’ve done everything I could.
Love you D
Oct 21, 10:19PM PDT | 0 comments
I hit a major major emotional creative block during my final year of high school, and never really found my way back to painting. I expressed my creativity through other means, but always felt a big wall when I even thought about painting. It’s taken a journey through fashion, music, drugs, 4 cities, 2 nervous breakdowns, but I’ve finally begun to dissolve the block. And it feels brilliant!
The best part is that I’m realising that the time in between wasn’t wasted. I’m seeing a new level to my work that wasn’t there before. A spirit of music, the depth of the life I’ve lived, it’s all there.
So I plan to have an exhibition. I’m going to be gentle with myself. No deadlines. Just one canvas after another, working on it when I feel the desire. Until I have enough to organise an event. I can see it in my mind.
Apr 05, 04:29AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
I’m packing today, moving tomorrow! So can’t tick it off officially until then, but eeeeeeeeeee!
Dec 26, 2008, 12:48AM PST | 0 comments