I am so sorry for making your life so hard. You father really did love me, but I didn’t love myself and couldn’t find a way to be happy. It is all my fault that your father and I are no longer together. Now he has remarried and is happerier. Know if I had the chance to fix things I would…I never meant to hurt you…I am trying to make things right with you
slotowngirl's Life List
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1. be a better mother
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2. be in committed relationship
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3. save money
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4. get a degree
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5. learn to play the piano
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6. lose 10 more pounds
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7. be true
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8. learn to swim
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9. by a home
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10. write a novel
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11. simply love myself
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12. be honest
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13. get real
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14. remember my own worth
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15. be the girl in short skirt and long jacket
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16. long jacket
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17. Get Ben Fisher to love me again
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18. make more female friends
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19. forgive myself and others
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20. have lunch with Eartha Kitt
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21. make a difference in people's lives
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22. be forgiven
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23. become a screenwriter
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24. write a movie script
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25. learn to love
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26. let go of my past
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27. join the gym
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28. be a wine connoisseur
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29. learn to say no without feeling guilty
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30. start an interior design business
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31. visit new york city
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32. Love without fear
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33. run a 10K
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34. eat more sushi
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35. forgive my parents
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I hate that my mother had me at 15 years old, doesn’t know who my birth father is. She left me with my grandparents, who were extremly disfunctional. I never learned how to save money, learn the importants of an education. I have nothing to fall back on. I am reaching 40 soon and do not know how to come out of this all.
How do I turn my life around…get an education, find true real love, get out of debt and live debt free going forward. Buy a home, get real about my life and choice made in my past…I ruined many relationships do to running from my past. I hope the men that tried to love me forgive me for all the problems I cause them. I hope they don’t think all was lost in trying to love me.
I want to be a good person, trust people, love and be loved
I have never really had many friends let alone female friends. I want to have girlfriends, people you can have dinner with, go to the gym, travel, cry on a shoulder.
How do you meet straight friends in the bay area?
