It’s the last day of November, so I guess I’ll relate my new and fulfilling experience. I visited my best friends over the weekend (out of state, without the family!), and spent the weekend with my pal and his fiancĂ©. She’s really wonderful! And my best friend is marrying her! Getting to know her was very fulfilling, and when she learned I was a wine geek, she broke out a very special bottle she’d been saving for a special occasion. Imagine; meeting me, a special occasion! Very cool. (I’ve now blown my annual budget for exclamation points.)
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2. raise a confident daughter
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3. be a better husband
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4. let go of my anger
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5. live life fearlessly
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6. stop being lazy
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7. learn patience
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8. find a new job...and get the courage to quit my current job
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9. sail on the open ocean
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10. round cape horn
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11. figure out what i want to do with my life
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12. Sleep well
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13. stop caring what people think of me
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14. identify 100 things that make me happy.
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15. forgive myself
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16. Learn how to remember peoples' names
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17. Get a PhD
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18. sail to hawaii
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19. Meditate more often
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20. be the kind of person my dog thinks I am
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21. enjoy Fall 2007 by having one new and fulfilling experience in October, November, and December
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22. make more friends
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23. be a better cook
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In October, I was promoted to a more senior position in such a manner that actually detailed and acknowledged my contribution to the Project. My first promotion that wasn’t attributable to attrition or mystery. Certainly new, and definitely fulfilling. November: a solo roadtrip to visit friends in my new car, but that’s a couple weeks away…
A lifetime of perceived slights? A few big (actual) slights? Honestly, enough is enough. I’m sick to death of being defensive, and quick to anger/slow to cool. It doesn’t make me a good husband, it doesn’t make me a good father, it doesn’t do me anything but harm. I’m not some raging asshole, but there’s this continual smoldering just below the surface. When I was younger, it was sadness… and now it’s anger, and it sucks. How do I let it go?
