sobermom

okay I fell off the wagon and have been drinking pretty much every night for 3 weeks, after two whole weeks of sobriety. but tonight i’m quitting again. just sick and tiured of being sick and tired. i work too much and drink too much.

one week sober:
let’s go over the symptoms i was feeling one week ago shall we:

bloodshot eyes
puffy face
fatigue
bad breath
headache
sore arms & legs
ramped up appetite
negative thoughts
guilt
hatred
tinnitus
being broke
heartburn

one week later, i have taken my vitamins & fish oil pills, etc. most days, worked out a couple of times, not eaten that much junk food, maybe lost a pound, gotten some bills organized, gotten
some housework done, and have felt great.

have not needed to take ibu’s for headache
have not needed to take tums
have not needed visine
have not needed gum for bad breath
have not bought lunch out because i made it at home
frankly have not been that hungry
haven’t been ravenously thirsty and have actually been peeing a lot (who knew? when you’re not dehydrated)
have not been distracted by guilt
have not been short of breath
have not been nearly as achy (except for soreness after my workout)
tinnitus and hearing is better
no more neuropathy or tingling

Love this site; it’s been my daily destination for keeping sober. Just reading everyone else’s stories and struggles helps me so much. Last night was Saturday night AND Halloween AND the kids were away at sleepovers; why not have “a couple” (yeah, right) glasses of wine with my hub while watching something funny on TV? And of course smoke a “couple” Marlboro Lights. Had to fight the urge all the way home from trick-or-treating with my kids.

Just stop at a liquor store, buy a big bottle of YellowTail Chardonnay and a pack of Marlboro lights. Come home, turn on TV, get trashed, go to bed, have a dreamless sleep, wake up with a hangover at noon, get nothing done around the house, start the week in the red.

No thanks. I forced my car into the garage without stopping at a liquor store, went upstairs to my room with my herbal tea, popcorn, soduku puzzles, netbook, magazines. Settled in. Fell asleep at 11. Woke up feeling great, heading out to pull out my garden for the fall, a nice seasonal ritual. Will have a productive day.