sofyne

I haven’t been on 43 things in a while but i needed to update this goal.

I thought i was over it all but i wasn’t, it’s strange to think someone still had some type of emotional power over me. Everyday in my thoughts which used to piss me off.

I went out with some friends, to be honest i was dreading going coz i knew he would be there and i haven’t seen him for a long time (years), my stomach was doing monkey flips days before.

I walked in the club and there he was!!! and OMG I felt nothing for him at all! All this time/years i was worrying about nothing! I was scared of dating again coz i was unable to let this fool out of my system.

The fact that he is very unattactive to me now made the process of facing him that much easier. I was so proud of myself i walked to him, had a little chat and brought him a drink! And i secertly toasted to myself I’ve Finally LET U GO!!! When i got home i danced around my bedroom coz i was so happy. Letting go is the best feeling in the world!

This goal has been on here for so long that i needed to take it down. I know i will have my days when he is on my mind and it will come out of the blue. But i will deal with it in a classy manner. But at the end of the day he has his new life and i have mine. And my friends the brokenhearted will always get the upper hand in the end.

Been getting a total of 4 messages from ex this week deleted them all , i deleted it!!! And he sent me three invites to his birthday party but I’m not going to go; after the last time he treated me like a joke, so i will not attend.

I was driving to work yesterday and saw him on the corner, I just pretended I didn’t see and drove past him…it felt so good driving past him. Normally i would have beeped the horn, but this time i don’t need his attention. I know he saw me but who really gives a damn.

I’ve gotten to stage where personally don’t want to know anymore or care wot he’s dealing with in his life coz i’v got my own to sort out, I guess out of site out of mind and the no contact rule is working for me. I think I’m finally there now gettin over him now “Oh happy day”.

I can’t believe i wasted so many months pinning over him, when i could have been having fun. But no like a fool i got all depressed, stopped going out, faked my smiles to hide my pain coz my joy was taken away. Well That s##t ain’t happening no more.

At the end of the day Our book ended and now I’m working on my own novel.

To All my ladies/guys under taking this goal i feel your pain, it’s like it’s endless. But please don’t depend on someone to make you happy because it is admitting that you have no power over your life. And we are mightier than that.

And thus which one are WE a Victim or a Worrior.

A victim is someone who believes that safety and happiness comes from the outside, thus it takes very little to take it away.

A warrior is someone who knows that happiness, fortitude, and endurance comes from the inside, nobody absolutely nobody can take that from you, unless you let them.

Keep your head up people….hopefully the aching pain will pass…for all of us…and wot a wonderful day that would be.

one love to you all

Sofyne xxxxxxxx