It’s only been a week, and my good friend is on a trip downtown with my boyfriend, alone. She has a boyfriend, and they are “job hunting” but it still really pisses me off. She makes time to hang out with him alone.. but not with me. Grrrrrrrrr. I know he’s no longer mine, and when I hung out with him he said he wouldn’t go if I didn’t want him to.. but what right do I have to say no… even if I know they’re going to talk about me. :’(
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How I did it: Unlike most single teenage girls, I was not searching for love. I was happy to be single and didn't want a boyfriend. There was a boy I had a crush on, but I didn't think it would go anywhere. Still, I decided to invite him downtown with a few friends. One of my girlfriends told me right off the bat that she thought he was cute. After the trip I told him about it, admitting I was a bit jealous. That's when he told me he liked me, and ever… Read how I did it…
Today was the first time I hung out with my boyfriend just as friends. It didn’t feel too different, except for the fact that we tried to avoid silly arguments. We went to lunch and then talked in his car for two hours.. he was supposed to leave at two but I kept an hour longer. It was 2.5 weeks since I last saw him and he’s honestly one of my best friends, so I had a lot to talk about. I also needed to be reassured that he wasn’t gonna go out and immediately hook up with a bunch of other girls. It was just comforting to know he was the same patient, loving, great listener he has always been, allowing me to talk as much as I wanted even though he had to go. :P We didn’t really talk about our relationship… but I feel like I got the closure that I needed, knowing he hasn’t changed. When I left, I gave him a hug, and was about to kiss him on the cheek, but then he kissed me on the lips… and proceeded to give me a wedgie… typical behavior lol. I left feeling so much better, I was afraid I would be sad, but no, I’m glad I was able to see him once more before we both go our seperate ways to college. Although it wasn’t said, I think we both know believe that God willing, we may get back together someday. It wasn’t as “final” as I feared it would be. And if anything, I know we have our friendship. :)
I’ve been trying to “explore” different parts of the Bible on a daily basis, for the past week or so I have been working on reading a chapter from 1 Samuel each day. Today I am on 1 Samuel 17, the story of David and Goliath, which is a story I really enjoy. Its interesting how I can apply what I read to my daily life, which can be difficult with the Old Testament, at least for me.
In addition to that, yesterday I read about the 9 Fruits of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22) and each day I am trying to work on a different fruit. Yesterday was love. Which for me, entailed being kinder and more caring towards my mom, being friendly to everyone, trying to express Christ’s love simply by smiling. Today’s fruit is joy. It will be interesting to see how I can apply that today.