someonehurting

im sorry to have to write this but i have to otherwise i might send myself more crazy then i am already…... i want to die tonight the pain is filling up inside and it is killing me not to let it out i have not cut in a very long time but i am wanting to cut myself now it so strange how i cant seem to take any pain anymore everyone is getting on my case i hate being alive i have nothing and no one i know people will say you must have something but i feel i really dont none of it is worth it anymore not that i will do anything bout it i am to weak to try it again i just hate feeling like this all the time this feeling is making my life hell in itself…........... wy do we live like this what is the point really cause i cant see it

i feel like shit i have not cut for over a month and for me thats great but yesterday it all started going down hill and today things have just gone from bad to worse and i did it i cut the top of my arm to bits and i feel like crap for doing it but i have suicidal thoughts again and the cutting didnt get rid of the pain this time but i had to stop because it was really bad but i just want it over i cant keep fighting anymore not when i dont see a point in doing so and even tho i am cant get myself to talk inside i am screaming so load it deafens me im so very lost today …...................

i feel like shit i have not cut for over a month and for me thats great but yesterday it all started going down hill and today things have just gone from bad to worse and i did it i cut the top of my arm to bits and i feel like crap for doing it but i have suicidal thoughts again and the cutting didnt get rid of the pain this time but i had to stop because it was really bad but i just want it over i cant keep fighting anymore not when i dont see a point in doing so and even tho i am cant get myself to talk inside i am screaming so load it deafens me im so very lost today …...................